Shawn Kimbell Obituary

Hi Zenn, how you doing sweetheart...Kyle and I almost got killed tonight at a dinner table. We were eating at a restaurant and a car came in the window of the place, and took up half the place. Glass, Glass, Glass, flying all over the place... We are fine and everyone else was fine, it was a miracle we all walked out of that place...Zenn I know you were with us...Shortly after getting home I went to Facebook and Jane witch I never see is on there with your picture. I felt so close to you as if we almost saw each other again tonight...Miracle, Miracle, Miracle and you were there as I could feel you. Nobody understands the shock of when a violate thing happen to you like that..I now understand how you must of felt...but GOD took you to him as his child...It was not my time,but a hairs with away it so felt...I felt the Miracle of
GODs hand on Kyle and I and the after mass of dispair as you must of had, before you went away...I got to walk away and you guided us to help others as you would of done. Glass, Shock, and Dispair control your heart, but something bigger than yourself, gets you up to Help others, and when you appeared on Facebook I knew you were right there with use and helping use. Thank You my Hero, Thank You...Please take care of Mom as my heart misses her deeply with profound respect...Your all great that are there, and joy will come to my heart, when GOD says its your time now Susie...I'm not afraid, but I want my life as full as GOD wants it to be...I never forget any of you as you all know so well...Zenn you were the gift to use all...Thank You for that honey...Untell next time my protector...untell next time...I Love You Zen, I Love You and Thank You Again and Again for everything... :-) My Friend...

Watched you grow and mature from a small child to a young man. As with all youth, some of your choices were tough...some were easy, but you made them. Some things I did not understand, but they weren't my decisions to make - they were yours! Your life was cut short by another "decision" that was made, which should not have been, but God KNOWS how many days each of us has on this earth, not us. Rest in Peace Cousin!

27 years ago Zenn came into my life and taught me how to live and love again. That was the happiest day of my life. Today Zenn I am planting a tree in to back yard that we shared and loved. I miss you so much and love you with all my heart. Miss you Big Guy. Hugs and Kittens

There is nothing that compares to the loss of a dear loved one. May the hope a resurrection in a nearby paradise comfort you during this difficult time (John 5: 28, 29; Psalm 37: 10, 11).

Well Shawn home is not the same without you. I sit in the backyard and look at all the plants that you started or replanted around the yard and see how much they have grown. It hard to believe that it has been this long. I still can not accept that fact that your are gone, it feels like someone has beat me in the chest with a sledge hammer. I still expect you to walk in any minute and say it was all just a bad dream. I love you Big Guy. I'm tired of fighting this battle i'm faced with, too hard to do since you're not here to give me advice on what to do.

I met a young man on the plane Sunday, he was 6ft.4inches and wished he could fly first class cause he was cramped up in the seat. He was around your age and hair color. We talked our whole trip on the plane together. It was so fun,I"m a old lady and never dreamed he would want to talk with me. He reminded me of you Zenn. JUST A GREAT PERSON!!! I thanked GOD for that, as I felt we had a visit together. It was a Wow Day !!!!

I am sorry for your grief. Please know that Jehovah knows what you are going through. That is why he has offered the hope of a resurrection (John 5: 28, 29; Psalm 37:10, 11).

Although I did not have the privilege of meeting him, Shawn seems like a fun loving guy. I am so sorry for the loss. I can only imagine how you feel. Yet, be remembered that "there will be a resurrection" in a beautiful paradise here on Earth (Acts 24: 15; Psalm 37: 10, 11). May this hope comfort you during this difficult moment in your life.

I have been healing Shawn, but never, never forgetting you. You live within me always. Your Great Spirit as helped me to help others. I so Thank You for that. I miss my family with all my Heart. Please keep sending your strength, I do receive it in Full my Love.

Hello sweetheart, a day to remember today !!!! Your car jack murder was finaly sentenced today. He goes away for a very long time. Zenn go pay him a visit and enjoy your self. Love You Forever Aunt Susie

We Love You so,so much and miss you so much more if you can believe that. Love your Aunt Susie

Shawn was and is a memory each day and always in my life. I Loved him so, he was a one and only special man. He left us so young, we all wanted more for his life and us together with him as well. He was proud,educated,fun loving,a big hugger for support to other, a worker, a true friend,he truely cared about people and wanted to meet you for you,he judged not but loved all if he could, he checked out the world and wanted to go to great places, he loved his friends and cared about them deeply. He steped up and was a man for alot of people and he did a good job at his manhood for such a young man. He was so loved and will be missed by so many. Thank You Zenn for everything and don"t forget I Love You Forever. Aunt Susie Kimbell

To know you is to LOVE YOU always

To Know you is to LOVE You Zenn and to Miss you as well

I Love You and Miss you sooooooooooooOOooOoOoOOOoooo Much

Love and miss you Zen Hugs and Kittens

Well, Jane's been with you for a while now. I hope you're both at peace. I love and miss you both so much.
We have another baby now, his name is Sylar. Both our boys will grow up knowing who you 2 were and I hope they'll be at least half the people you were.
I'm always thinking of you 2. Always hoping to catch a glimpse of you in my dreams. Will always love you 2.

Well Big Guy, I know I haven't been hrer I a while but things didn't start it good this year either. Had a bad Chemo reaction in January, no more Chemo, fractured my hip,total hip replacement on March 27th. Now I have 2 fractures in spine (L1 & L2.
Doing Radiation again (5 days). I miss you

Hey Big Guy had MRI today and just got the results. More tumors plus didn't shrink the others to much. I love you so much and miss you more than you can imagine. Full Brain Radiation didn't do much. Love ya

You're the kind of person that if someone does't get the pleasure of meet you, they miss out in life. We love you Shawn.

Think about you often brother. Love you and miss you.

Hey sweets....
It's been 8 years....still crazy to think about. Getting some of the friends together. ..hopefully...and gonna light a candle for you and leave some things for you at the stop sign.

We miss dude...All your radiating light still shines through us.

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I miss you so much Zenn. 8 years now and I need you. Always have and always will. All my love and all my heart has always been for you.

Hey big guy just finished my last treatment of Full Brain Radiation last night. Bald again, and my head,ears and forehead is burnt. I started chemo again today. Really don't know how much more I can take. This cancer is like the Winchester Mystery House, keep growing. I miss you so much, love you bunches.

Well Zenn today I start full brain radiation for 10 days. Those tumors just keep popping up every 3 months, also cancer as spread to spleen, left kidney, more in both lungs, and some more lymph nodes. Everything starting to take its toll on me. Will check back in soon. Love and Miss you with all my Heart.

Happy Birthday Zenn. We miss and love you so much. You will always be in our hearts. I wish we had more time to go see Jane, but now that I'm not working for a little while, and am just going to school, we can and will. That woman is the best thing you could have left us with, thank you. We will always cherish the time we got/get with both of you. RIP buddy.

Happy Birthday Bud!

Hey Buddy,
Today you would be 30 years old and guess how I will be spending the day. Heading back to S.F. because they found 4 more tumors in my brain, so more Cyberknife treatment. Tumors in lungs, lympsnodes are getting larger. I miss you Shawn and am always thinking of you. Love you, will check back later.

Well Zenn I have made a big decision. Let's do this Big Guy. I Love You. Stay by my side and I will be OK. Your Jane

Well it's Christmas and we really haven't done Xmas since 2006. But stopping by to tell you I miss you and sending all my Love to you Big Guy. See you soon.

Hey Big Guy I know it has been awhile but stopped by to tell you I have had my 3rd round of Carboplatin and it has started to take its toll. Potassium is down and creatinine is up and GFR is down. All shows that my Kidneys function is a problem. Go in for another PET scan on the 29th, then doctor on 30th, and ringing in New Year with another blast of Chemo on the 31st. Fun right? Anyway don't really know how long I will keep this up. Maria not handling it well at all. She looks at me and just cries. I love and miss you so much. Will be back soon. Love Your Jane

OK so had first chemo, I had a port put in because they can't use my arms and nobody wants to stick the needle in my legs. Have to have blood pressure taken in legs now. Still have hair and I feel like crap. Love you big guy, will come back soon.

Shawn stopping by to give you an update. I have Stage 4 triple negative breast, it has now spread to my lungs and there is no cure. Will start Chemo on the 27th to see if it will slow down spreading. Doctors at this time can not tell me how long I have so I will be with you soon. I am sure in my heart that the loss of you just shut my body down. I lost the fight. Love you. I can wait for that warm hug of yours, see you soon.

7 years ago today was the worst day of my life. I still can not accept, forgive, believe, understand, or move on. You are my heart Shawn, and it has been ripped from me. I love you and will never stop. Miss you so much.

Today Shawn is 7 years since I last seen you, held you, heard your voice, looked into those beautiful brown eyes of yours, seen your smile and told you that I love you. I miss all of it, everything about you and I will never stop. I need one of those hugs of yours, and to see that smirky smile that you would give me sometimes. I love you .

Made it through surgery. When I woke up and seen Maria, I asked her if you were there. She said No. I love you Big Guy and miss you lots.

Hey Shawn, stopping by to tell you that I have Breast Cancer again. I'll be having surgery tomorrow, another mastectomy last one of course I only have 2 boobs. Same as 4years ago, triple negative, invasive breast cancer. I am most afraid that I will have to do Chemo again. I don't want to, last time it really messed me up. I hate this, that you aren't here. I need you. I miss you so much, you being gone has really taken a toll on me. I love you Shawn, Stay with Joe until I get wherever you are.
P.S. maybe I will see you tomorrow. Please come to me. Love Ya

Maria and I will always have the light on for you. Hugs and Kittens

Miss You...

I miss you Zenn. Seems like this is the only place that I can go and talk to you. Today it is really hard for me as it marks the 6th year that we all lost you. It hurts just as bad as it did 6 years ago, and I still have that deep feeling of being hit in the chest with a baseball bat. An emptiness inside that can never be filled. Love to you always. Until we meet again, Your Jane

Hey Big Guy, can you believe I am going to be 56 this year. That means for half of my life you have always been first in my life no matter who else was in my life, and still are to this day. I miss you so much and you are always in my thoughts 24/7, always wondering if I could have done anything, what really happened I will never know I suppose but the regrets like not being able to write a proper letter to the judge and not being able to stand up in court and let the judge know what the effects of the loss of you had done to me, that was because of the cancer treatments had done, couldn't write and my mind was all mscrewed up and pretty weak, I could hardly stand. I'm sorry that I had failed you on that maybe it would have made a difference in sentencing I don't know. I love you Shawn and will always love, miss, and think of you. You are still #1 to me.

Hey Zenn ....I think about you all the time and wonder if the people I met you through do too. You have touched me so deep that 6 years later I think of you and tear up. I drive by Alice st and pause and promise myself each year I will stop by and leave some thing but I never do. I love you dude. Wish I would have said goodbye that night you were taken, you told me to come visit you at work before I left for training and if I would have known I would have. I think that's what hurts the most, what if I had came and saw you, would the nights events have been altered? Just by a millisecond...I miss you and I promise to talk with you more...randomly as I do sometimes. I know your listening, there are so many people who love you!! HUGS*&*KITTENS SIR

Today you would be 28 years old. I think of you all the time. You are the first person I think of when I wake in the morning and the last when I finally fall asleep. I miss you Shawn, so much that I can wait till night to fall asleep and finally get some peace. I love you.
Your Jane

I know it's been awhile since I visited here, but most of the time I still can't beleive it's true. Kasper and Brandon are having a baby boy, due June 2, 2012. His name is Nikolai Shawn Kiel. Oh and they got married on a friday April 13th, 2012. I don't see many of your friends, just Shiv, Kasper, and Brandon. Shiv has a girlfriend he has been living with now for 2yrs I think. Anyway will be back soon and of course all my Love to you as you are my life. Miss you always.

shawn, 5 years without you has taken a huge toll. life isn't ever going to be the same for any of us, but most especially your mama/aunt jane and byph. i hope you know how much you were loved. Sometimes when the house is very quiet, i still think i hear you sneaking up the stairs from the basement.

Hi Shawn. It's been 5 years now. Too long since I held you and told you that I love you. I miss your hugs, your smile and just talking to you, hell I miss everything. The house has an emptiness about it now and I mostly just wonder around it. I love you Shawn and hope to see you again soon. Come to me Big Guy, I have been waiting to long.

Zenn it's me again just stopping by to say I love and miss you. You are always on my mind, day and night 24/7. I Love you big guy. Home is not the same without you.

Hey Shawn just stopping by to tell you I miss and Love you. Planted a tree on your Birthday in the backyard. I am home now and glad to be back. I keep waiting for you to sneak upstairs to surprise me. Love you Shawn.

Well Zenn I am finally back home. Things just are not the same anymore without you here. Think of you everyday, every minute. It sure is tough. I love you Big Guy. I will always leave the light on for you. You were my light.

I love you Zenn

You should see what I have done to myself, well really the doctors did it to me. Wish I had never done Chemo, of course none of this would have happened if you were here. I am still in denial about everything. Can't seem to accept thatb you are gone never will Big Guy. Anyway think of you all the time, I LOVE YOU ZENN you are still my life. See you soon I hope. Always your Jane

I have kept the light on for you Zenn. I love you big guy. Always your Jane

Zenn. your light is always in our heart. Always, Always, Always your memory is our wonderful treasure.

Zenn, oh yes forgot to let you know we lost our cousin Chris Kimbell in march 2010 of Houston and at the end Austin TX. He had a gun accident at the shouting range. He was 63yrs and he was the greatest of a person. Take care of him Zenn and keep smilin together ok sweetheart. Aunt Susie

Hello Honey, I just finished watching a movie on the oxagen chanell with Ashton Keaton in it and my God Shawn I thought he was you. He went though different ages in thiis movie as you did. I saw you Hon, he looked just like you to me. I told you, that I throught you could make it in show bussiness. I really met that too!!! Wow Shawn, sure miss you lots. It is true that it is so hard not having you here with us. We all miss you, and our hearts break at the thought of you not showing up some time soon. Hey, got some news for you Shawn. Nancy called the other day and her son finally got married in August 09 and is also having a baby.Aunt Nancy is going to be a grandmother can you believe it ????? I"m so happy for her and know you would be. I can see your great smile right now, like your Grandmother had it. That great heart you had came from your Jane. Wish you were here to show us your story as I really,really miss your special self Zenn. I LOVE YOU and enjoy your month Zenn and we all will be thinking about you just a litttle more this month. Aunt Susie

I miss you so much Zenn. It is so hard not having you here. I love you Big Guy

Rest and take care of yourself,know that we Love and REPECT you always for your grit and that you are always family. OH NO !!!!!! :) Thanks anyway for who you are. SPECIAL !!!!

I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY Aunt Susie

I"m sending you flowers from my heart always. This month they will be RED and full of lots of LOVE, LoVe, Love, Aunt Susie K. and Family

Happy birthday big man... love you and miss you

We love you and miss you. I know you are safe with my dad in heaven and you guys are watching over us and there isnt a day that goes by that we dont think of you. Love Melinda

It's been 25 years since you came into my life. I was so proud when you were born. You had brought back to me what had been lost for so long, now it is lost forever without you. I need to hear you calming voice, feel your strength, and your wisdom. I miss you so much. Think of you everyday.
Love ya
your jane

It's been 25 years today since you came into my life. I was so proud the day you were born. That day you gave me back so much of what was lost for so long, now it is lost forever without you. I need to hear your voice and feel your strength and wisdom. I miss you.
Love ya
your jane

Hey big guy. Thinking of you all the time. I need you Shawn.

I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY Aunt Susie

I"m sending you flowers from my heart always. This month they will be RED and full of lots of LOVE, LoVe, Love, Aunt Susie K. and Family

You are our memory and our treasure...... Aunt Susie

Hello Zenn, We Kyle and I went by your street memorial tonite after our dinner, to just say Hi sweetheart and see how your friends are caring about you lately. Honey your street memorial was all cleared out and not anymore. I was sad and then happy as maybe your pain was being moved on, and more happy things are coming into there lifes. Zenn you were there 2yrs3mos.and maybe some will never let that place leave there heart and will still come back to show there LOVE .. But if it is really gone, you Zenn or our young Shawn will always be a LIGHT in our Hearts that will never Die. I know that you are there waiting for the ones that you loved, and will be there to take care of them as they come to you and God. Life and GOD has -His Time- for us all to join his loving family. Thank You Shawn and Zenn for all that you showed and taught me, and for the friendship that we shared. Kyle also says thanks for the friendship, and the smiles we shared together that were so very,very special to our hearts. We shared something that was so special and I know you shared with alot of folks. Has I have only seen love for you and that makes me so, so proud that you touched so many with that great Heart of yourS. ------------------------OUR HOPE------------------ Let not your heart be troubled: Ye believe in GOD, Believe also in me. -------------In my Father"s house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you.----------------------------------I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare A place for you, I will come again and Receive you unto myself. John 14:1-3 Amen

You are our memory and our treasure...... Aunt Susie

Zenn-The calm between two storms is the meaning of your name. A place of LOVE, PEACE, and UNDERSTANDING. To Honor Zenn is to live in that place where he worked so hard to find his self. Wow !!! I so felt that with you Zenn, and I so admired you for it also. THANK YOU ZENN -XXXOOO Always Aunt Susie

When someone you Love becomes a memory, then the memory becomes a treasure. Always Zenn, you will be our treasue. I still can"t believe it is really true, that you are a memory. This bad dream has to STOP....... !!!!! I Love you always Zenn and I"m sad to say that this is not a dream. May the lord hold you in his arms and kiss your sweet face. May he Bless you dearly by letting you look out for your family and love us greatly. I just can"t believe its really, really true. But i know that it is.!!!! You are our memory and our treasure...... Aunt Susie

Hi there Zenn. I"ve been gone and away from my computer. Its been nice to get away from Hayward. The news is bad here as always and don"t like this town much anymore.This is my childhood town,and its time to move away. Make some new changes in our life. I will miss you forever Zenn !!!! I Love You !!!

Born the King of Angels, find his Magic in your Heart. Merry, Merry, Merry, Christmas !Aunt Susie K.

Hello :) Sweetie, I Love You and Jesus too. I just don"t know how I would get through this life without him in mine. I think of my loved ones and miss them so. But with the help of our Jesus he gives me joy. Sweetie, I know you were growing in the spirit of faith. I know this because you called yourself Zenn. You were seeking a place of peace, and that is were my heart goes as I seek Jesus. So Zenn, enjoy your heavenly peace and I"ll enjoy our earthly peace. I Love You Zenn with all my heart and wish so much we could share life together. I miss my Mom and Pop, with other important family members, that to share with them would be wonderful. I must say that to know Jesus is to see the world in a much, much, much, higher place. I stopped crying, because I got to know him and I trust in him. He is our heavenly Father and he does have all the answers. The world has answers and the Lord has light on those answers. You know when you hear him cause it sounds right in your soul. I want to take this time to wish all a special Christmas. We all have good reason to thank our heavenly Father, and to wish him a wonderful birthday. I will enjoy the peace on earth that we feel at this time of year the most, and hope he helps all to feel and experence is Love for all. Christmas is the time for the heavens, and the time most to Love my wonderful family that is enjoying it the most. Merry Merry, Merry, Christmas to you all. Aunt Susie K.

Yes Awesome !!!!!! Hum , Wow , Special as you are. Nice !!!!Nice!!! I close my eyes and see that nice smile and you happy to explore our world and also experence and touch what was there to enjoy with open eyes. Zenn you also found the fun in the smallest of things and truely enjoyed yourself. I saw the same in your Grandpa as well. So, i guess that was that Kimbell sharm. :) I know you had your Grandma"s great smile. But I think you had your Janes great heart. She taught you alot about many things that I could see. Character Zenn, is something that you are not born with, it is something that you learn and get better at with time and age. Your Jane and you were both working on that together and you both would have done well. The world is a hard place to get through, it is big and scary as we all tell the children ,when they are young. The world is harder now, than it was when I was a child or young adult. So Zenn, remember you are our Hero and showed the world how awesome you really were. Only the special, get to see the magic for the reason GOD but you here for. I never heard one bad thing about you in my life Zenn. I don"t think that could happen for my very own life. So Zenn, keep us all smilin ,and help us to find the joy that you would have discovered in your repectful way. I Love You Zenn !!!!!!! Aunt Susie

I"m sending you flowers from my heart always. This month they will be RED and full of lots of LOVE, LoVe, Love, Aunt Susie K.

HI SWEETIE, how is all up in the big blue sky today. We went for a walk today with the dogs and our cat in the almond orchard, and the sky was so nice today and the almonds ready to be picked up with the equipment that they need and only happens one week out of the year that they do this. We even watched them shake the trees and do the gig on them and so cool !!!! Any way the day ended with a nice sunset as we headed back with our tribe of 3 dogs and 1 cat. Hey, it was so very much GOD like today, and my thoughs went to my special family that I miss so very much. Hope all is well up there in the clouds of greater LoVe and worship for our LORD and SAVIOR. He has a birthday coming up soon (JESUS) and hope you all up there have a great party together and please send our LOVE to all the Family that is there and your getting larger on that side than this. :) Happy BIRTHDAY JESUS and you all party on now !!!!!!!!!!! One thing to ALL that is family up there and yes, you to Zenn, I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY,VERY,VERY, MUCH. Keepagrin always family :) cause you all and I mean all, keep me grining. xxoooxxxooxo Love Aunt Susie K.

I think of you every day... and tell many about how awesome you are.

Hey Shawn,
Little Venus has been missing for 3 weeks now. To much crap has been going on and people have changed so much. Joe passed away in August and now Venus gone. That black cloud still looms above me but I don't care. I will be back to where you can find me really soon, but please don't take too long to come and get me. I'm tired and I just want to be with my boy and my mom. I love you.