William Self Obituary

Hello Honey,

There is no way to explain the hurt and emptiness that will always be a part of me. I love and miss you today as if it was only yesterday that you left us. There will always be a gap in our family.If not for your brothers and sisters and I will have to say mostly your sisters, I would never have made it through the past year. if not for them, I have no idea where I would be. I do thank God For all of them, and for allowing me to share your life for 46 years. Hold on to us baby, we will all see you soon. I Love You.



Always you Mom

Hello my dear brother,

I sure do miss you, has it really been a year already, sometimes it feels like yesterday that you were here with us and then other days it seems like you have been gone a long time. We miss you more and more every day.You keep watching out for us and save us a place in heaven. love ya mean it

Angie

It has been one year today since we layed you to rest.

It doesn't seem real.

We miss you Billy.

And love you so very much.



How I'd love to hear one of your crazy jokes.



I love you.......

me

Hi. It's me.....again

I feel like I am in the middle of a bad dream.

Won't someone wake me????



How did we get through this year without you????

How are we going to get through the next one??

Or the next?????

I miss you.

where has the time gone??

It feels like only yesterday I was holding your hand and you were telling me how much loved us all.



Andrea and Lydia found a recording that had your voice on it.

"Hello, Merry Christmas" was what you said! How wonderful it was to here your voice! It made me feel so sad that you aren't going to be here with us this holiday season. It is almost to much to think about.

I miss so many things about you Billy. I read a story today to the class and I've read it a million times before. Never thought much about it. But today it really got to me.

Red socks, Yellow socks?

I told you about it.

Big Billy and Little Billy trading socks? And what silly Billys they were?

I'm reading it with the class and start to cry.... they haven't a clue what is wrong with me!!!!

So I had to tell them. One of them just got up and hugged me. She said it's ok.... cry.... I've got you.

How big these small childrens hearts are. I am truely blessed to work were I do.

And how truely blessed I feel to of had you as my brother.

I will never forget you....

love.....me

hello you.

Thanksgiving has come and gone.

We miss you Billy.

The holidays will never be the same.

Look after Marty from where you are.

Keep him safe.

I love you....

mean it....

me

Hi its me, well the first of the holidays are here. We will all be at moms today, and no we didnt make her do all the cooking. I just keep thinking back to last Thanksgiving, you were so sick, but at least you were here. Carol and Kaylynn are comming to eat with us, im glad of that, we dont see alot of them, but we do invite them to all of the family gatherings. I love and miss you so much, I dont think I will ever get use to the idea that you wont be comming back.......... HAPPY THANKSGIVING--------I LOVE YOU

Hello, I felt the need to talk to you tonight,oh how I wish you were here. Its just not right, I wish that you didnt have to leave us, I miss you more than I know how to express. As you know Marty Jr, has gone to do his duty for his country, and we are all so worried for him, so if you would please watch over and protect him, you can be his own personal guardian angel. And the holidays, how are we suppose to get thru them without you here. No one is looking forward to them, I know I would like to just skip them this year, its just not going to be the same without you here to celebrate with us. Yes I know that you will be having a wonderful celebration in heaven, but I guess Im just selfish, cause Id much rather you be here with us. I love and miss you Billy Himself

Hey Billy, I just thought I would stop by and tell you that Bell has started on your web page. And so far its looking really nice, I dont know if you would like some of the pictures that shes using, but I think they are so cute. I have to admit you were a cute baby and a nice looking man. I sure do miss you alot.You will always be in my heart. We will never let your memory die. I promise we will always keep your resting place nice and tidy, like we all know you would want it.Mom misses you so much, I just hope that you can send her some kind of sign to let her know that you are ok, that would make her feel better, it would make us all feel better.I love you to to much.

grab that and paint it green!!!!

If only we could here those words again.... we sure could use a laugh.

a good'ole Billy joke!!! can you send one our way???

miss you...

HI, ITS ME, MISSIN YOU. I JUST CANT GET USE TO THE FACT THAT YOU ARNT HERE ANY MORE, IT JUST ISNT RIGHT,WITHOUT YOU THERE IS THIS HUGE GAP IN ALL OF OUR LIFES, THE MISSING LINK, AND WHAT WE WOULDNT GIVE TO HAVE THAT LINK BACK, IF ONLY FOR A LITTLE WHILE,THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I NEED TO SAY TO YOU, THAT I DIDNT GET THE CHANCE TO SAY. I AM SO GLAD THAT I CAME HOME TO HELP YOU, TO BE ABLE TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU, I TREASURE THOSE MEMORIES, I JUST WISH I HAD COME HOME A LONG TIME AGO, I REGRET THAT.LIKE BELL SAID PLEASE LETS US KNOW IN SOME WAY THAT YOU ARE IN HEAVEN, AND THAT YOU ARE LOOKING DOWN SMILING ON US, AND I TOO HAVE TO ASK YOU TO PLEASE LOOK AFTER OUR LITTLE BROTHER, WE ARE ALL SO WORRIED ABOUT HIM, AND SCARED AT THE SAME TIME, SO PLEASE KEEP AN EYE ON HIM AND CARRY HIM THRU THE HARD TIMES.

ON MY MIND

AND IN MY HEART

ALWAYS

LOVE ANGIE

Hey Bo,

somehow, someway, there has got to be a way for you to let us know you are ok. Mom needs to know she will be with you again someday. I need to know if there is a place after death and not just 6 feet under. I want to believe but I just can't, I try but I see TO MUCH pain around me and distruction, how could GOD sit by and let it all happen.

Good Morning



I miss you so much, Its been 8 months and feels like yesterday.Billy we need to know that you are with Jesus and that you are ok. Please let us know in some way. We picked out a headstone

for you. Its very nice.I would have liked to have a picture of you alone on it, but Carol wanted both you and she on it and thats ok. Andrea is selling their house and plans on moving back to SC. It will be good to have her home again. Honey please watch over Marty, He leaves for Iraq the first of November. I am so worried. My faith in God is still strong, and I'm not angry at him anymore, I'm just angry with the world. Well its time to get ready for work. I really miss you stopping by so often to visit with me. I know that God brought me home from Texas to share in your life for the last years. I thank him for that and that you chose your last words to be to me, I Love You Mom and I'm sorry. I don't kanw what the sorry is for, God loaned you to me for almost 47 years. and I would take you back again even if I knew that you would leave this world before me

again. You will never be any farther than my Heart. I Love You Honey.

Always Your Mom

just missin' you.

love ya....

mean it....

me

hello there. I wanted to talk to you today, but was not sure how to! I miss you and our crazy chats!

You could always get me laughing. Even on the worst days. I love you....mean it.... me

Good Morning Baby, Yes I will always remember you as my Baby. You were my first and God knows how very much I wish that I could go back to the days when I could protect you. Honey I Love you so much and to express in words how much I miss you are totally impossible. There is not a day since Feb. 1st that I haven't cried; for the pain inside is more than anyone could ever imagine. I go to the Doctor today. I pray everything will be good. I'll always remember you daily and will always keep fresh flowers there for you. I Love You. Mama

me again.

Thought I'd write you a short note.

Tomorrow would be yours and Carol Sue's anniversary. And to think, you said you didn't think it would last!??! I'm so glad that it did. I know you are smiling down from Heaven. I know you are tellin' jokes, kickin' back, relaxing. And I know that you are healthy and happy. And that is what we all prayed for. But, Billy, We miss. I miss you. I can relate with Moma, Andrea, Angie and everyone else that says "This is not getting any easier"!

I love you. mean it.....me



ps-thank you Lydia for keeping this page up for the family.

Great will be your reward!!

Good Morning Honey, I miss you so much. I'm having a really rough time with your passing,I will never accept it. My heart is broken and I can't control my tears anymore. I cry myself to sleep at night with your picture close to my heart and I talk to you every day. I need to know if you are still my son there in Heaven and if I'm still your Mom here. I Love you so much Son and will always keep you close to my Heart. My Love will never let you go. Mom

HEY BO, JUST WANTED TO FEEL LIKE I WAS TALKING TO YOU AND THAT YOU WOULD ACTUALLY WRITE ME BACK.

I MISS YOUR WIERD E-MAILS AND WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO OPEN MY COMPUTER AND FIND ONE FROM YOU. THE WEB SITES WE SHARED............DAMN.

IF THERE IS A PLACE WHERE YOU LOOK DOWN ON US, TOUCH YOUR FAMILY, AND KNOW HOW DEEPLY YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED. I AM GOING HOME SOON AND YOU CAN KNOW, YOU ARE MY REASON. I KNOW I NEVER SAID IT NEAR ENOUGH, BUT I LOVE YOU BILLY, AND I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE AS THE DAYS GO BY. IT IS NOT GETTING EASIER.

Billy, well its been six months since you left us, but it still hurts like it was just yesterday.I miss you so much, I went to Kaylynns Birthday party last week, she is growing up so quickly, she misses you so much, when I pulled into the parking lot and saw your truck there it was almost more than I could take. It just didnt seem right that you wernt there with us. You were alway the life of the party, you sure did know how to keep us laughing, and I really miss that smile of yours, what I wouldnt give to just see it one more time.We all miss you more than you could ever imagine. Love Angie

Mere words could never express the sadness that surounds my heart. It has been six months since you left us. I miss you. Your crazy jokes. Your laugh. Your friendship. Your love. I feel as though my heart will never mend. Kaylynn had her birthday party last night.I kept hoping that you would walk in the door.

Though I knew that would not happen. How different it felt without you there. And yet listening to her talk and kid around, I could feel you near.

We miss you Billy.

I love you.....

May God bless. Rest in peace my brother.

Well today marks 5 months since I last held my son in my arms and told him how much he is loved. I Love you Baby, Hold on until Jesus comes for me.

MOM

Happy Fathers Day Billy, We love and miss you more each day. People say it willl get easier, but I dont see that happening, I miss you more now than I ever have. Theres not a day that goes by that I dont think of you. To my family, I love you very much.

I Love and miss all our family get togethers. Billy is and always will be needed in the place that only he could make complete .There is a void in our hearts that belongs only to him.. I LOve You.

MOM

Miss you... Love you....mean it!!!!

AN ANGEL CAME TO SEE ME ONE DAY,

AND TOUCHED MY HEART SO TENDERLY,

HE DREW NEAR BY,THEN RIGHT UP CLOSE, AND LOOKED AT ME INDEED SO LOVINGLY.

WITHOUT RADIANT WINGS, AND NO HALO,

BUT WITHIN A BRILLIANT AURORA OF LIGHT,WITH GRACIOUS CHARM,AND SPARKLIING EYES, THAT GLOWED WITH SMILES OF DELIGHT.HE ENTERED MY LIFE WITH LOVE AND CARE, A DAY THAT WAS SURLY LAID OUT IN TIME,

REACHED FOR MY HAND AND TOUCH MY HEART, REALLY LOVING, GENTLE AND EVER SO FINE, SHELTERED ME HIS WINGS EVER FLUTTERED,

REGARDLESS IF IN SUN OR SNOW OR RAIN.

HE ALWAYS HAD A KIND WORD TO UTTER,

MY ANGEL KNOWN BY ONE NAME,

YOU SEE THE MORAL OF THIS SWEET STORY IS,

IN LOVING MEMORY, I TRULY DECLARE, THAT THIS ANGEL, HIS NAME IS INDEED BROTHER,

MY ANGEL BY MY SIDE.

To all my Family~

Well yesterday was a month since Uncle Billy died. I still cant believe he is gone. I feel so lost. I know everyone else does too. I feel your pain and if anyone ever needs me please dont hesitate to call. I found this poem and thought i would share it. I love you all very much never forget that!



God looked around his Garden and found an empty place.

He then looked down upon his earth and saw your loving face.

He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest.

His Garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best.

He knew that you were suffering, he knew you were in pain.

And knew that you would never get well on earth again.

He saw your path was difficult, he closed you tired eyes,

He whispered to you "Peace be Thine" and gave you wings to fly.

When we saw you sleeping so calm and free of pain,

We would not wish you back to earth to suffer once again.

You've left us precious memories, your love will be our guide,

You live on through your children, you're always by our side.

It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone.

For part of us went with you on the day God called you home.

Uncle Billy~ You were the best I miss you so much and i hope your watching over me. I didnt forget my promise! you just wait and see! Ilove you.

To Carol Sue and Kaylynn, I love you both. I am here when ever and for what ever you may need. To my sisters and brothers, I love you. I'm here for you, and I always will be. Billy asked me to make sure to keep all of us close. I promised. I will keep that promise. Know that he loved each of us. To mom, I love you. I'm here for you. No one can know 'your' pain. And yet we all are suffering.The tremendous sorrow that fills our hearts now, will again be filled with joy when we meet with Billy in heaven. Until that time we must come together. Grieve together. Support one another. What an emotional journey we have ahead of us. My prayer is that we learn from Billy' last days. Live that love and joy that he had and gave so freely. Hold onto one another. Never let a day go by without an "I love you". And to "Billy",I miss you. God speed. love you.....mean it...me

To all of my family:

I love you all with all my heart. Mom, I know we can't take your pain away, but we are all here for you. God is always there for you, and he can ease your pain if you allow him to. It still seems like a dream I keep hoping to wake up and see Billy, I love and miss him so much and my heart has a hole in it that will always be there. I know one day I will see him again in Heaven and be with him and Jesus forever. Thats what get me through each day. I love everyone in my family with all my heart and soul please always know that. Please everyone give your lives to God so we all can be together in Heaven forever. Love you all always

To My Family~

I love you all more than words could describe. If you need me I am only a phone call away! I never knew life without my Uncle Billy and the past two weeks have been horrible. They say if you love someone you have to let them go but what they dont tell you is how much it hurts!

Uncle Billy ~ I can't wait to see you in Heaven so I can smile the way only you could make me!

To all of my family,

I love you guys very much, this is going to be tough for us all, we must stick together and share our pain. I am always here for each and everyone of you,-------Billy, I will miss you so much, losing my big brother is like losing a piece of my heart, there will always be a void there without you.

Martin,



I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. I never knew him but I know that he meant a lot to you and that he will be sadly missed.

Let me know if there is anything that I can do.

I met Mr.Self a year ago in the lab at Summerville Medical Center where I work.He came to thank me two weeks ago,and I held his hand and pushed him upstairs in a wheelchair to his room,I am so glad I got to see him.Mr. Self Gods speed to heaven.

The ladies of C. Irvine Walker Chapter #190 of the United Daughters of the Confederacy, Summerville, SC wish to extend their deepest smypathy to the family of Mr. Self and that you will be in our thoughts and prayers.

Joanne Lancaster, Chapter Recording Secretary

To all my family I love you and I am here if anyone ever needs a shoulder to cry on , or someone to talk to. We all need to stay close more now than ever before. So please dont hesitate to call me for anything no matter what it may be for anytime day or night. May god bless all of your hearts, with all my love, Crystal leigh

Mom, I could never know the pain you feel, and I am so sorry you have to know it now. Remember us kids are here and you are not alone.

Hearts remember the Love they felt most.........Bell and Lydia

Kaylynn,

This is Mrs. King (Bee Readers 2) from Flowertown Elementary. I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I am thinking about you and yours. May your memories of Dad bring you happy thoughts and comfort. Take care and hurry back to school. Love, Mrs. King

Carol, I am so sorry about your loss. You and the family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Alma

Karol,

I'm so sorry about Billy. He'll be greatly missed. Larry, the kids and i are thinking of you and your family. Love.

The Parris Family

May you find comfort that your loved one is now whole again in Christ and no longer suffers from the ailments of this life on earth. My thoughts and prayers for strength during this time of grief go out to each of you.

Carol: There are no words to express my sympathy to you and Billy's family. He was such a special person. So much fun and a really big heart. Bart and I will never forget him. He made Bart feel special and that really touched my heart. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. Love, Cathy & Bart

I'm so sad to hear about Billy. I've known him and his family since grade school.All my love to you Carol and the family.

You are in our thoughts and prayers. Billy has gone to be with Jesus and make a place for you all to be together again.

Your friends in Christ,

Danny, Janet, & Caleb Austin

My prayers and thoughts are with you.



Carol, Bob & William

Carol,Thinking of you and your family today and in the days to come.God Bless you all.Love,Carol B.