Kyle Bammann Obituary

My Dear Kyle: I know this book will close very soon, but always know that you will be in my heart forever. Christmas is right around the corner and you will be so terribly missed by everyone who loved you so much. Its comforting to know that you will not be alone this Christmas because you will be celebrating with Jesus. All my love forever, Grandma Judy

Hello Kyle,
I wrote in here shortly after you left us and have read every entry in this guest book. You were certainly loved and admired by your family and friends.
Jon and I lost one of our son's and the hole in our hearts will never be filled and our hearts will forever ache for him. We always wonder if we had done something different maybe he would still be here but that's not the case because God had a job for you and it was completed.
Watch over your parents and loved ones until you meet again.
Much Love & God Bless,
Shirley Dillon

Hey Son, your guest book will be closed forever soon, so it's with a heavy heart, I write this last posting. The people who knew and loved you wrote so many kind things about you, but I wasn't surprised. You were such a adventureous and spirited young man, with the kindest heart a parent could ever wish for. I miss your voice, those beautiful Blue eyes, and that awesome smile so much. Not a day goes by Kyle, that I don't think the Special times we spent together. I want you to know how Proud I was of your accomplishments. "What we do in Life, Echo's in Eternity". You were never afraid to try at Life, even if the possibly of failure was present. Especially, if you thought you had a chance to succeed. I wish I had half the courage you had. I miss everything about you Son, and I promise to always keep your memory alive. As for me, I'll continue to honor your memory while I live out God's plan, and look forward to the day we can be together again. For now, although I miss you terribly, I have some peace knowing my Beautiful boy is safe in Heaven. Rest in Peace Son, and please stay close to my Heart. Especially today, it's my Birthday. Well, I guess this is it. This is not a Good-Bye, but I'll see you later. I have to admit, I'm a little scared that I won't be able to find you when I get to Heaven, so please wait for me. As long as we're apart Son, I'll be missing you !
All My Love For Eternity,

My Dearest Kyle,
It's been 13 months since you left us and I still ache every minute of every day. To here your voice, feel your "Big Momma" hugs, see that amazing smile and those beautiful eyes light up when you walk into a room. I miss hearing about your dreams and your plans for the future; your thoughts and concerns about what was happening in the world.It amazed me to see the young man you had become! God, I am so empty without you in our lives. I have always been so proud of you Kyle. Your successes showed me what you were capable of and your failures showed me you were always willing to try. You were so independent and strong, yet loving, respectful and kind. You were so witty, funny, and determined! God, you could make me laugh!Most of all you never gave up trying. I couldn't have asked for more. You know what's in my heart,Kyle. You always knew "the deal". I will always love you and miss you my Son!

Momma

Hey Son, today would have been your dog Panama Babe's 16th Birthday. I remember how much you loved to come see him in Florida. He loved you too. I hope you both found each other in Heaven, and are waiting for me. I attached one of my favorite pictures of you and Babe. I miss you both so much Kyle. Believe me, I know how much I have to be grateful for, but I still have such an empty feeling inside that I just can't explain. I'm really trying Son, but my Life will never be the same without you. I hope your Proud that I'm taking my Masters test in January. I thought it was nice of Master Peterson to place your guest book on his website, so my Martial Arts family could see how Special you were to me. Well, I hope you don't have anything planned for the 23rd because I'm really going to need you to be there. Kyle, please know as long as we are apart, I'll be missing you. Stay close to me , I need you.
All My Love Honey,

You were my light and my joy and I am forever broken without you. I love you and miss you so much Kyle.

Hey Son, I just wanted you to know on Thanksgiving day, you were on not only on everyone's mind, but in their Heart as well. Today is you Mom's Birthday, so please stay close to her Heart. Kyle, I know you would expect us all to go on with Life, but it's just so hard. You were loved by so many. When I try to imagine Life without you on a everyday basis is very difficult. I remember when we used to talk for Thanksgiving, I would ask where you were going, and you would always reply "going to Mom's, she always has food", and we would laugh. I really miss our talks, and hearing your voice Kyle. I promised you and myself, I would start remembering the day God gave you to me, and not the day I lost you. I'm trying Son, but it's just so hard. Maybe, because I didn't get a chance to say goodbye, but I promise to keep trying. Please know, not a day goes by I don't think of the Special times we spent together. Moments I will always cherish. You will always be in my Heart Son. Continue to watch over your family Kyle. We need you to help us be strong, and to give us the knowledge to understand when your mission on earth was complete, God's will was to take you home to Heaven. Someday, my mission on earth will be complete, and he will call for me to come home as well. Please, be there waiting for me. I Miss You Son !
All My Love,

Hey Son, thinking of you today just as I do everyday, but couldn't help to think, one year ago today you got up and went to work just as you always did, not knowing your mission on earth was complete, and that God would be taking you home later that day. The lives of your entire family were forever changed on November 19, 2008. None of us even got the chance to say good-bye or tell you how much we loved you. Believe me Kyle, the selfish human part of me wishes you were still here, so I could hear your voice say "I Love You Dad", and to talk Football, or to feel that Big Bear hug you always gave me, but the spiritual unselfish part of me know's you are safe and happy on your journey through Heaven. Believe me Son, the Heart of your entire family, and everyone who loved you is on that journey as well. Besides, who are we to question God's will. I'm sure Heaven is so Beautiful that even if given the opportunity to return, you probably would say to Jesus "No, I'm good". Kyle, I just want you know that although my Heart is sad because I miss you, and didn't get that chance to say good-bye, I have peace knowing I will see you again. That will truly be a Beautiful day. I also want you to know that as of today, I will begin to celebrate your Life and remember the joy you brought to all of our Hearts. I also promise to do my best, not to think of the day you left us, but the day you were given to us. Honey, no one could ever forget those Big Blue eyes, or that Beautiful smile of yours. In Life on earth you were a reflection of your family, and their values, and now with the type of awesome person you were, and your kind Heart, we should all be a reflection of you. I will always be very Proud of you Son for all you accomplished during your short Life. Remember, Life is just a blink of an eye, but Heaven is for Eternity. So this is not good-bye Kyle, but I'll see you soon. Rest in Peace my Heavenly Son.
All My Love,

Thinking of you today. The family misses you more than words can possibly explain. Rest in peace, Kyle, please watch over us. All my love.

Hey Kyle, It's been a year and I still think about you daily. I really miss you so much. You never know what you've got till its gone. I don't think that I was the best friend I could have been. I should have talked to you more and kept in more contact over the years. I beat myself up about that often, but I think that God put you at that game for a reason. I have to remember to think of all the good times and not the bad. My little boy is so big now. He is 4 months old , 14lbs 8oz. In lamens terms, he's about 3 bags of sugar - hahaha. Your mom and Julie have been wanting to see him, but I've been a slacker. I will get with them to show him off soon. I hope you can hear me speaking to you from my heart. Chad and his girlfriend had a baby too. He's a little older than Brayden and I haven't seem him yet though. Well I will see / talk to you soon. Love and miss you forever. TTYL!

Hey Son, just wanted you to know I was thinking of you today, just as I do everyday. I miss you Kyle, more than anyone could imagine. The love we had for each other, is the only thing that gets me through each day. In my Heart, I know your safe in Heaven, and that gives me some peace, but I can't wait until we can be together again.
Rest in Peace my Son. I promise you will never be forgotten. All My Love,

It still feels like yesterday you were taken from us, we all miss you and that smile! Daddy sold the boat, seems like since that awful day none of us really want to go to the field or on the river without you.. . just doesn't feel right ya know? Anyways, just thinkin about you a lot today, I love you!

Remember the "Wake up puppy"?

Hi Son, this is your Special Day. It's almost 8:47 p.m., on October 12th, which is the date, and time in 1984, your Mom and I were blessed with a Beautiful Blue eyed little boy who we named Kyle Robert Bammann. Kyle, I will always be grateful, and consider myself blessed to have called you my Son. I'm very Proud of all your accomplishments. Remember, "What we do in Life, Echo's in Eternity". Well, I've tried to stay busy today, and just think of the Special times we spent together. I do have peace in my Heart to know your safe in Heaven, but I sure do miss being able to call you so we can talk Football. By the way, your Gators are ranked #1, and will hopefully win the national title again this year. Kyle, although I know your journey in Heaven has just begun, I want you to know your not alone. Every Heart you touched during your time here with us is taking that journey with you. I Miss You Kyle, and can't wait until we can be together again. Please, continue to watch over your family. Happy Birthday Son !
All My Love,

Happy Birthday Kyle! Miss you and love you always! Aunt Corinne XOXO

Happy Birthday Sweetheart! I know you are having such an amazing celebration that none of us could ever imagine. You were such a wonderful man and will not be forgotten. You will forever be in my heart. Xoxoxo.

Love always,
Shella

Hey Kyle, this is your little sister Allie. It seems like just yesterday that I was playing with you and having a great time up in Tennessee, but now I just look at the pictures of you and me. You were a awesome big brother too, and now that your gone and i can't see you no more, oh how i wish you would just walk through my door. Everytime I think about you I cry knowing I never got to say goodbye. It's hard letting go of someone I love, but I'll always know your looking at me from up above. I talk to you as if I see you all the time only if it was true, I promise I will never stop loving you. When you played soccer you were number 8, just like me, I wish I got the chance to play with you but now it's to late. I know you are in heaven and now your safe and in a good place, I just wish I was able to see your face. All the times we spent together I will always keep, and I will talk to you each night before I go to sleep. I haven't seen you for a long time, it's been quite a while, but that doesn't mean your ever going to stop being my Big Brother Kyle. I love you with all my heart Happy Birthday ?

Happy Birthday Kyle. I think of you everyday and will always love and remember you in my heart.

Happy Birthday Sweetheart, Today we celebrate you! If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. Love you forever and always, Aunt Stacey XOXO

Happy Birthday, Kyle, you are terribly missed by everyone.

My Dearest Kyle,
Today is your day My Sweet Son! We miss you so much Baby. Our hearts ache for you! We have all lost such a big part of ourselves when we lost you. We think of you every minute of every day. Happy Birthday Kyle!
All my Love,
Momma

Hi Sweetheart,
I miss you so much!
My heart & prayers will forever go out to your family & friends.

xoxoxoxoxoxox
Susan

Hey Son, I can't believe it's been 10 months today since you were taken from me. I was supposed to go first. I would do anything if I could only take your place honey. I've lived my life. You loved life so much, and had so much to live for. So many people miss your Beautiful smile and Big Blue eyes. When I read what the people who really loved you write in this book, it makes me happy, but at the same time my Heart very heavy. My soul is so broken Son, but the love you, and me shared for each other gets me through each day. Hey, your Gators beat Tennessee today. Tough day for us because Tennessee is a Special place for us, and a team we route for when their not playing the Gators. Besides, it's also where you hugged me, and said good bye for the last time. I miss you Kyle. It's days like today with Tennessee playing the Gators, especially on the 19th, that makes me feel like your still here watching over us. One reason I know your still close to me is something that happened a few weeks ago. Remember the little gold bear you picked out for me at North Charleston mall when you were 3 years old. Well, I almost lost it. I would have been devastated. I've never taken it off. I remember you asking me after I put it on "Daddy will it remind you of me when you go back to Florida". I just cried and gave you a hug. Having to go back home without my little boy torn my heart out. I didn't want too, but I had no other choice. I hope and pray you understand, and have forgiven me since you went to Heaven. Well, what happen was I mowed the yard, and had been working on the martial arts form I created in your Memory called "Musa Cham Sae", which means Warrior Sparrow, when I decided to go inside, and practice folding my martial arts uniform. I hadn't been in my bedroom all day, but decided it would be best to fold my uniform on the white comforter so I didn't get it dirty. After I was done, I happened to look down, and saw the little gold bear on the comforter. I could have lost it anywhere that day. Initially, I freaked out, but then smiled, looked up, and said ok thank you Kyle. I believe in my heart that you put me there knowing the bear was finally going to fall off the chain after all these years. It didn't break, but after 20 plus years I guess it just wore off. I have since placed it on your picture in the wooden case which holds all your Memories. That's the reason I know your still close to me. Please, don't ever leave me Kyle. I need you ! Well, until we talk again, I'll keep you close in my Heart, and always be Proud to call you my Son. All My Love for Eternity !

Kyle...you may have left this world, but you will never leave my heart!!! Thinking of you sweetheart!!! All My Love Aunt Stacey XOXO Uncle Bart sends his love also!! =)

10 months. doesn't seem real. ilu and miss u =(

Hey bud, just letting you know that we made it to cities for 8 and 9 ball =] I miss you so much, it still doesn't seem real to me that this has happened. I was hanging out with Kyle and Steven last night and we were talking about that time we were all at Jeff's and the 2 Kyles (( you and little caudle)) were driving the golf cart and ya'll crashed into the satellite dish! That is one hunt I will never ever forget, the look on your faces was absolutely priceless! I was going through an old photo album the other night and I stumbled across one of your basketball pictures, it was one from when Cathedral and Harvest played each other and I had no idea who to go for! I miss you, Kyle, one year is slowly creeping up and you are still greatly missed as you always will be. You are still a valuable member of the family whose memories carry us through our days, and your strong willed personality has inspired us all as a family to stick together and appreciate life through the good and bad. I remember everyday "what we do in life echoes into eternity"... You are forever in my heart and on my mind, all my love and deepest appreciation for inspiring me to do right by everyone.
Love Always,
Chelsea

Hey Son, college Fooball begins today. Your Gators play Charleston Southern tonight. Go Gators ! Oh yea, can you believe your favorite group "The Dave Matthews Band" is the official band for college Football on ESPN this year. I thought you would love that. Kyle, I'm sorry for not writing lately. I've had let what's ever left of my soul rest a little bit. I hope you understand. I've really been struggling lately. Especially, with your Birthday coming on October 12th. Lords knows how much I'll need your help on that day. So much for time healing wounds, huh Son. I remember calling you from the mall last year to ask you what color Gator sweatshirt you wanted. You asked me what color I liked, and I said Grey with blue letters trimmed in orange. I remember what you said like it was yesterday. You said "does it have a hood", I replied yea, and you said "no zipper right", and I said nope, no zipper. You said "cool". Then you asked what color I had, and I said blue with orange letters. you said "that's sounds cool Dad, get me the Grey one and we can share". I said Happy Birthday Kyle I Love You, and you replied "I Love You Too Dad", and we hung up. I didn't know then, but a month after that call, that I would never hear your voice again say "I Love You Dad". I miss hearing your voice so much Kyle. Well, I received the approval from Grand Master Boliard in August that I will taking my 4th degree Masters test in January. I hope your Proud of me Son. By the way, I'll need all the help you can give me. It's a 2 to 3 hour test. In addition, to the regular requirements, I had to create a form, so I created a form in your memory called the "Sparrow", which stands for "Freedom & Independence". I don't know if your remember me telling you, but a couple of days after we lost you, Anna and me were in the garage talking about you. We were talking about how safe and happy you probably were being in Heaven, when a little sparrow flew in the garage and landed on the window near your sister's room. It just looked at us and flew away. I know in my Heart that was you telling me you were ok. It made me cry of course, but I could just hear you say "don't worry Dad, I'm good". Anyway, it's going to very emotional for me, but an honor to perform the Sparrow form for the Grand Master in your name, so hope you enjoy it as well. Until we talk again Kyle, please don't ever leave me, I need you.
All My Love Son,

Opening day is coming up! I sure wish you were here to go with all of us, but I know you'll still be around!
Oh, and guess what else! The team i play on every saturday in pool made it to round 2 in the playoffs for the session in 8 and 9 ball, I'm so excited about it and it made me think about you as soon as we realized as a team we were moving on!! I love and miss you so much
~chelsea

Dearest Kyle you changed my whole world, you protected me when I needed protecting, and comforted me when I needed comforting. I still can't believe how this life can be so cruel and unkind to someone so full of joy and life. Its been over 9 months now and I still cry when I read your fathers post... oh how I couldn't imagine losing a child and I pray for your family on a regular basis. I love you Kyle and miss seeing your smiling face so very much.

Hey Kyle, I saw a movie with a cute seven year boy who looked like you. I laughed and remembered how cute you were and how you played with Lea and Brandon. I am so glad I had those times to share with you when you were young, I love and miss you but know some day when I go home to be with the Lord we will see each other again. A whisper in the wind would be nice to know you are there it will be like our butter fly kisses remember those? I hope that movie comes on again so I can go back to yester year with you. love Goobie

WE were at the Lake this weekend, watching uncle wyn gear up for opening day.. just listened and laughed of stories of opeing days. I told him you would be watching him for me and all the rest..Just give them a little tug and let them know you are there.... i sure miss you sweetheart.
aunt kyleen

My Dearest Kyle,
God, We miss you! It's hard to believe it's been 9 months since you left us. I know your spirit is with us, and we share your stories often. You still keep us laughing, even amongst the tears! You will always be alive in our hearts, and you will always be a part of me. I am forever thankful and blessed to have had you for a son. You kept me strong(and always on my toes!) but most of all you showed me what unconditional love is and for that I thank you! I would give anything to be able to pick up the phone and call you; to hear your voice just one more time saying,"Hey Big Momma, what's happening!" But I hear you and see you in my heart and mind, and always will until the good Lord brings me home as well. Until then, always know that I love you.

Momma

Hi Sweetheart,

Just wanted to pop in and say hello! We sure do miss you alot, We think of you all the time. Lots of love to you and your family.

I miss you!

Hey Son, I can't believe it's been 8 months today since I lost my first born child. I remember the day you were born at McDill, AFB, in 1984 like it was yesterday, and try to forget the day I lost you, but I can't. My Heart is very heavy and sad. However, I do smile when I think of the day you were born. It was during a Tampa Bay Bucs game I might add. I remember walking your Momma down the hospital hall way and on the way back dipping in the lobby to watch the game. lol ! But when it was time for you to be born, everything else just stopped. I watched you being born, and I when I saw your Beautiful face my Life was changed forever. I miss you so much Kyle, and can't believe I have to go for the rest of my Life without. To hug or to be able to call and say "I Love You Son". I really miss hearing your voice. I want to you know how grateful I'am to have had you in my Life for 24 wonderful years Kyle. Look, I realize that I'm supposed to be humble because their are a lot of other people who have lost a child and who are less fortunate then myself, but I can't help to be sad. My heart goes out to all of those people, but the biggest and most important part of my heart is with my Son, who I miss terribly. My Heart will be forever be broken. I just wanted you to know that I keep you close in my thoughts and in my Heart every second, of every minute, of everyday, and will for Eternity. The only thing that gets me through each day is to know when the Lord calls for me to come home, I'll be coming home to see you again. Daddy misses your Big Blue eyes, and that Beautiful smile Baby, but most of all I miss hearing your voice saying "Hey Dad, I Love You" Not to worry, we'll be together soon Son, but until then.
All My Love,

Hey Kyle, its been a couple of months, but I finally tracked down the pics I wanted to upload. It was tough finding them since my parents still had a lot of things in boxes, but it was a blast digging through the "old stuff." There were a bunch of 4th of July's and Goobies clown pics and summer stuff. I did find the a good one though. My mom used to have the one of you and the car up on the fridge (i think) or somewhere, I cant remember. I just remember seeing it a lot when I was little. HAHA even then I was jealous that you got to take that pic with Dad's car and not me. Anyway, the other one is from the 4th of July at the mall. Thats the night I blew a firecracker up in my hand, and we had to keep it a secret from our parents. My finger hurt for a week. Well I'm sure your folkes will get a kick out of them, I know you will. Later kid.

Hello Sweetheart! Wanted to let you know I was thinking about you!! I know your watching a hell of a show from heaven tonight!! =) Love you bunches and big bunches!! XOXO

Hey Son, just wanted you to know I was thinking of you just as I do everyday, but especially today on July 4th. Holidays just aren't the same anymore Kyle. However, knowing the type of person you were, I know you would have wanted everyone to continue enjoying the holidays, especially for the sake of your brothers and sisters. I just hope you understand the void left in our lives after losing you has been unbelievable, so it just makes enjoying the holidays really hard. I remember when you were a little boy how much you loved sparklers, and seeing the fireworks at the mall. Kyle, I promise to do everything in my power from now on to make the holidays Special for Kasey, Kristian, & Allie. All I ask is that you continue to do the little things that let me know your still close to me and that your ok. I know your happy being in Heaven, but as a Dad I still need to know your ok. I hope you know how much my Heart misses you Son, and always will until were together again. Until we talk again honey, I Love & Miss You with all my Heart,

hey kyle,
we were all at the lake this weekend aunt michelle and uncle cory got a lake house last week, but it wasn't the one we all grew up at! it felt good to be with the family like we do every year, but we all missed you terribly! it felt incomplete without you, but we knew u were there in spirit.
i went home saturday night and cried like a baby when i went to bed, it's all beginning to hit me, after 7 months... there will be justice ky ky... we love you too much and you know how stubborn we all are!! hope you've found some good places to hunt up there! haha i love you, and i miss you terribly.
<33 chelsea

Good Morning Son, I woke up this morning and turned on the light in the wooden case that holds all of your memories, just as I do every morning. I couldn't help to think that this is my first Father's Day for the last 25 years without a card or call to say "Hey Dad, Happy Father's Day, I Love You", but I know in my heart that you are with me. This has been the hardest time of my Life. My children are my soul, and when I lost you Kyle, part of my soul was lost as well. I Miss You so much. Sometimes I feel like I can't take it anymore, but then I'll watch your brother Kasey play Basketball (he's cut like you were), or watch how good your little brother Kristian (we call him Chi Chi) hits Golf balls (I remember how good you hit a 7 iron at 150 yards), or watch your little sister Allie score a goal in a soccer game (she still wears your #8 in memory of her Big Brother who was an amazing soccer star), and then I just smile, and remember how grateful I'am to have had you in my Life for 24 wonderful years. No one could ever take your place in my heart Kyle. Your brothers and sister have their own place in my heart as well, but when they see me down and know I'm thinking of you, they always seem to say or do something to make me smile. My officers and fellow Lieutenant's at work tell me at work that they can't believe how strong I've been after losing you, but I'm really not. I still cry, get mad, and wonder why all this happen. I know you would want me to move on with my Life, and not cry anymore, but part of me still wants to feel those emotions because it makes me feel close to you. I know I don't have a choice but I really don't want to move on without you. My heart wants you to come home, so we can be buddies and pals again. Just like when you were little. I Miss You Son, and Love You with all my Heart. Please, don't ever doubt that. Well, until we talk again, please continue to watch over our family. We all Love & Miss You Very Much. Thank you for the Father's Day hug this morning. Yea, I felt it !
All My Love for Eternity,

Hi Honey! Just sitting here thinking and remembering. We're going up to the lake today, but it's just not the same without you there. My heart aches when I'm out on the water and remember all our times there! Remember the last time we were all out and Jason's hat flew off? When you guys jumped in to get it all at the same time? That hat was his favorite and without a doubt it had to be saved! I remember looking at you and I felt such joy and pride at the amazing young man you had become. Oh, how you loved being on the water! I miss you terribly Kyle but today I will go out on that water and in my heart will celebrate the gift of having you in my life, the joy you brought us, and the knowledge that I will be with you again someday!
I love you and miss you my Son!
Momma

Hey Kyle, today is your Momma's Special Day. I know it doesn't feel special to her right now, but I promise you that you were a very Special part of her life. Actually, I can honestly say that you were her life Son, and she misses you very much, just as we all do. But, I also know that a Mother's Love is different. It's more Special in so many ways. Therefore, I wanted to let you know that I acknowledged her today and gave her all my respect for being the best Mother I could have ever wished for my Son. Please, always hold your Momma close. Especially close on days like Mother's Day. She needs to feel that your still here. Please, always try to find a way to show her your ok, so she can feel at peace. I miss you so much Son, and can't wait to see you again. That will definetly be a Beautiful Day !
All My Love for Eternity,

hey ky ky i was thinkin about u a lot here lately, i've lost 2 really good friends since you left, it sucks but hopefully you're up there keeping an eye on them, things really aren't the same without u! i see michelle quite often at players place, and the team i'm on on saturdays made it to cities in 9 ball =] i figured you'd like that one, i've gotten a lot better since the tournament we had in your honor, and daddy and cody almost had it too! they made it all the way to the end and lost by a hair!
anyways, i love you kyky and i miss u soooo much, see u soon boo boo.
love chels

Hey Son,
I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and in my heart, every minute of everyday, and will be for Eternity. Especially on holidays like Easter. I remember how much you loved Easter when you were my little boy. I just wanted you to know how much I miss you honey, but I think you already know. I attached a pic of our last Easter together. You, Kasey, and Allie having an egg on a spoon race in the back yard. Of course you let your little brother and sister win, because that's just the way you were. I miss you so much Kyle, and my heart is forever broken.
All My Love,

Kyle,
It's Easter and I can't help thinking that this is a day we should be rejoicing; A day for renewal and hope. But my heart is broken and I am so lost without you in my life. I look back at all the years and all the egg hunts,Cadbury eggs(your favorite!) and Reese's; big chocolate Bunnies and all the happy times we had with our family together on this day. You are with me every day; in my heart, my soul, my mind, but then again, you know the deal. I miss you my dearest Son.
All my Love,
Momma

My Dearest Kyle,
Well I finally spent some time going through some of your things. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but oh what memories! I found not only your high school graduation gown and tassle but your Kindergarten gown and tassle too! Boy was that a long day! But you stood up there so patient and proud! I have your first pair of baby shoes, your first tooth for the "tooth fairy," the lock of hair from your first haircut, and you sure didn't want that hair cut! It took 3 trips to different places to get you to let them cut that hair! I still have the Turtles your Goobie made for you. I was hoping one day your own children would have them. I even found that old red sweater that I made all of you children wear just because I wore it as a child and my Grammy had made it for me! It still looks pretty darn good too! Remember that duck picture you made that we were all so impressed with? And the book you wrote about your fishing and hunting with Dad and Uncle Eddie? Oh Kyle, I miss you so much! I struggle everyday, Baby. I know you are with the Lord and every day I ask Him to give you a big hug and kiss from me until I see you again and can do it myself. I miss you so much! You are forever in my heart!
Love you!
Momma

hey buddy, i haven't written on here in quite some time but i met a guy that worked with you at leisure depot today, it was pretty nice. anyways, it made me miss u and i had it on my mind all night while i was with my friends, i can't believe it's been 4 months. it seems like it just happened and we are all still struggling with it, but we try to be like our ky ky and get through it. go big or go home right? anyways, just wanted to show some love on here for you, give my baby bro a hug for me! i love you,
<3 chelsea

Hey Kyle, as you well know today is the 19th, and I don't think I have to tell you how rough it's been for me today. On this day 4 months ago, my whole world crashed into me when I lost you. Everyday is a struggle without you Kyle, but I'm trying so hard to get my life back together. Only because I know that's what you would want for me, and I'm very proud of you for once again thinking of someone else instead of yourself. You were an awesome person Son, and the world is not a better place without you. I Miss You So Much ! Well, you should have seen your sister play her All-Star Soccer game on St. Patrick's Day. She was incredibile as always. They won 2-0 and Allie assisted on both goals. Of course she deticated the game to you and still wears #8 in your memory, just as she always will. The jersey was to big for her, but she was bound and determined to wear your #8. You would have really been proud of her. Anyway, the kids really miss you Kyle, just as we all do. Your kind heart will live in our hearts for always. Well, I won't keep you Son. Besides, I'm sure God has you really busy right now. Make sure you look out for me when I get there. I'll probably need a job. lol ! I guess I just wanted to talk a little, so I could feel close to you. Especially today. Unfortunatley, I'm sure their will be lots of these days ahead. Well, I'll be in touch Kyle. I just wanted to tell you about your little sister making the All Star Soccer team. She is definelty cut from the same cloth as her Big Brother. We'll talk again soon. I Miss You ! I Miss Us !
All My Love Son, for Eternity !

Hi Kyle...I know you wouldn't remember me but I remember you well when you were an adorable little boy. My husband, Charles, is first cousin to your Grandma Adeline. The end of January we visited Adeline and John and also paid a visit to your Dad and Anna. Bobby gave us a tour of their beautiful new house and we got some photos of your family. I even took a photo of the wonderful picture of you, the one where your eyes follow one across the room as if you are watching over them and I believe you are doing just that from heaven. Bobby told us the terrible thing that happened to you...it made me cry then and it still does. That's why it has taken me so long to sign your guest book. Every time I log in and read entries from your friends and family I get so upset that bad things happen to good people. Your Dad is so proud of you and misses you so much. I remember when he brought you to our home in St Petersburg and then to Pass-A-Grille Beach when we were staying in our condo there. You were adorable and he was the proudest Father ever. Now I know you are in a better place. This world is so messed up but I pray that things will be better one day soon. And I pray that your Dad can find peace just knowing that you are in the hands of God. Take care Kyle. Our love goes out to you.

I added the photos...told ya not that computer savvy so I think I probably should have added it to my entry, but oh well. As long as you get to see him. love ya!

Hey Kyle, I just wanted to drop you a line and let you know that I found out the sex of the baby and its a ........BOY!!!! Yay!!! I'm so excited!! We had the ultrasound yesterday and I tell you what the technology they have now days is incredible. It was in that 4D or whatever they call it and I could see the baby as if he were right here with us. I'm going to try to attach the pictures for you to see...KEYWORD is TRY!!! He's quite the dramatic one like his mother..haha. He's going to be spoiled rotten and I can't wait to do it. I really wish you could meet him, but something tells me you already have. I still miss you very, very much and pray for your family daily. My mom is doing very well with chemo and I bought her some cool scarves to wear and she's adapting better than I thought she would. I think she will be done at the end of this month or early April. I think her driving force is the fact that she has a grandbaby on the way. Well I know everything is great up there, Hope your still looking down on me. Love & Miss you very much. TTYL!

Hey Kyle, just wanted to drop a line to say "I Miss You". The emptiness I feel inside is incredible, but I'll never to try to fill it. That space will always be saved for you. Know one or nothing could ever take your place Son. Anyway, I called your little brother Cody yesterday for his Birthday. He is doing well, but I guess I don't have to tell you how much he misses his Big Brother. Cody said he had to work on his Birthday because he forgot to ask for the day off. We both laughed and said "who do you thing that sounds like". Just like his Big Brother. Cody loves & misses you so much Kyle, just as we all do. Anyway, Cody said he didn't mind working because things just weren't the same anymore since you went to Heaven. Victoria and Cody are coming to Florida this summer, so I'm looking for ward to seeing them. Well, I'll talk to you soon Son. I just wanted you to know I think of you constantly, but sometimes I have to just sit down and write. This is one of those times. It makes my Heart feel good. Please, continue to watch over your entire family Kyle. We all need really need that right now.
All My Love,

Hey Kyle,

Just a note to say I love you & miss you so much! I think about you every day..... I guess Buddy Boy misses you too!! because he decided to go missing today!.You know how that goes! No matter HOW HARD YOU TRY TO TEACH HIM HE HAS A MIND OF HIS OWN ....THAT IS Buddy ! hAhAhA!
Michelle knows how to find him & I know she will not give up untll she does find him....after all he is your baby!
Anyway, sweetheart just thinking about you so much I had to come in here and say hello.... :)

Lots of Love forever,
Susan

Hey Kyle, we just got back from the Soccer tournament. Your little sister Allie was awesome. They won all 3 games yesterday, 1 game this morning, and the Championship game this afternoon. Allie had 13 goals this year and 4 goals in this weekends tournament. You would have proud of your sister in her red #8 jersey, just like you used to wear. As a matter of fact, your sister dedicated this Soccer season in Loving Memory to her Big Brother Kyle. Anyway, now were settling in for the Daytona 500, and I saved you a seat right next to me. A Bud Light also I might add. Well, I'll talk to you soon Son. All My Love,

Hi Kyle, Aunt Stacey just wanted to send you special hugs and kisses for Valentine's Day! We all miss you and love you to the moon and back! All My Love Forever and Always XOXOXO

Hey Kyle, this is Daddy. I just wanted to take a minute to say Happy Valentine's Day, and let you know how much your wonderful memories fill my everyday. Today I found one of the Valentine's Day cards you wrote to me when you were a little boy, but I couldn't read it, so I just put it away until another day. Today is a Special day of love & hearts, and know one I can think of had more people love them or had a more gentle heart than you did. You were to truly Special. It makes me so Proud, and happy to see how many lives you touched in your short life. Especially, when I read this guest book. So many people loved you Son. The things people write make me laugh and cry, but are so true. You will never be forgotten Kyle. I Promise ! I talk to people I don't even know about you everyday. They see the hurt in my eyes, and say, Wow, he must have really been Special. I always respond "you have no idea". Well, I just want to talk to you for a minute, and tell you how much I Love & Miss You. It makes me sad, but at the same time makes my Heart happy. I'm really tired from working so much lately. Mainly to keep my mind busy. Well, I think it's time for me to turn the light off over your picture, and close my eyes now, so I can dream of our times together. I turn the light off everynight, so you can get some sleep, and then turn it on every morning so you can get up for work. You probably think it's silly, but it makes me feel like your still here, and that's how I need to feel right now. I can't wait to see you again Kyle, but until then, please don't leave me here all alone. Hold me tight like you did when you were little. Just like when we were buddies & pals. Oh by the way, I love when you let me know everyday in some way that you are ok. Please, don't ever stop, ok. I really need to feel that your close to me, just so I can get through each day without you.
Happy Valentine's Day Son !
All My Love,

My Dearest Kyle,
It seems like an eternity since I've seen your smiling face. You are in all my thoughts every day. I miss you so very much Son. I wish you were here for your brother and sister as they miss you terribly. Your brother has had good news. He made the Dean's list his first semester. I know you would be so proud of him. He always looked up to you. Even when you were little and fought like only brothers could, he idolized you. Sis has become a real "Mom" to KiRBy. She worries so much about that sweet little kitten! You would be amazed! Grandma is as fiesty as ever and is the " keeper of the Cats" when everyone's at work. She likes to feed them and they sure look like they aren't missing any meals! Aunt Mel is so busy with her work we hardly see her any more. I think we need to change that! Dad is trying so hard to keep us all strong but I worry about him the most. He misses you so much and feels so helpless. We love you so much and look forward to the day we will all be together again. It truly will be " a beautiful reunion." Keep an I eye on us Baby. We have a long road to travel and we need you with us, you know, to keep us straight! Be sweet my Son. I love you and miss you.
All my love,
Momma

Hi Kyle, I just read Brandon's letter it made me cry because I can remember when you cute little boys played together and had so mush fun. I really miss you and sorry I didn't keep in touch when you grew up. Time goes by so fast. When I get so sad I think about what Triston said she was with you when you excepted the Lord so that gives me pease but I still miss and love you. I cry everytime I read what some of your neat friends write about how much they loved you. In your short life you touch all of us in a special way. No one can fill the hole that is left in our hearts. I am thankfull I have all the good memories of you when you were a little boy up until you were sixteen. Then you got big a job and you were living your life. I wish I called t you more and kept in touch with you. Now I will see you in heaven and that will be good, only the Lord knows when. Brandon is right when I went back to the old neighborhood is was sad, so different all of us were gone. I was thinking how much fun you kids had, they were good days, I hope all of us that are here will never forget those days of laughter.

Hey Kyle, finally got some more free time to have a seat and throw a few words your way. I'm sure you probably heard already, but yea, your gator's won it again. I hate to say it but they cant be stopped, at least not until that Tebow kid is gone. It's tough for me being a die-hard NOLES fan and getting stomped and pummeled by you gator fans every year, but u gotta give it to them. Anyway, I saw your dad and Anna a few weeks back. They met me and my parents at a bar where a bunch of "Dads" were playing in a band. It was cool though; they had a bit of Nickelback-meets-the-blues type of sound. It was good to see your parents. We talked a lot that night, and even tossed back a few Bud Lights with your name written all over them. We may have even had a few too many, but it was worth it to catch up with your old man. I got engaged in October. Every time I tell her about our summers, she just looks at me like I'm weird. HA HA, I just remembered this one!!! Remember when we used to play in that lot next to Gooby's. We built so many Forts over there out of practically nothing. I remember getting big branches that had fallen out of the trees during rain storms and making the crappiest little huts and lean-too's. But they were so cool to us back then. We weren't worried about the snakes or bugs or noghting, we just wanted to get dirty and have fun. I hope, one day, my kids have a neighborhood pal to screw around with like we did. I drove by the old neighborhood the other day, and its not as big as I remembered it. In fact its real small (ha ha ha). That "big" lot in between Gooby's and Joe and Claire's house is quite a small one now. I guess that's what happens when we grow up. Things don't look as adventurous and interesting anymore. I hate that part. Anyway kid, Ive got to get back to studying now. It was god talking to you. See ya around.

Okay...They just kicked off into Superbowl 43! Steelers Vs. Caridnals in your hometown of Tampa Bay! You know that The Steelers are Aunt Staceys' favorite team so I just wanted you to watch over them and help root for my team! You know they are gonna whoopp Warner! hehe He's good but he's just not good enough!! Uncle Bart is rootin for the Cardinals for 2 reasons...#1 because he is rootin for the Underdog and #2 so he can pick on Aunt Stacey and can call Ben "RottenBurger" hehe So while your watching the game think of me cuzzz you know the Steelers are going to walk all over the Birdies!!!!! Love You Baby, Sweet Dreams! XOXO

Hey Kyle, this is Daddy. I'm trying to get motivated for the Super Bowl, and was thinking about you. Things just aren't the same anymore Kyle. Especially, without being able to call you, and talk about the Big Game. I know you want me to go on and live my life to the fullest, just like you did, but it's hard. If it would have been the other way around, the way it was supposed to be, where you lost me, I could see you going on with life, but when one of your children goes before you, it's different. I can't expalin it Son. It's just different. Anyway, I think the Steelers will win today, but wouldn't be upset if the Cardinals won. You and me are alike in a lot of ways, but one way for sure. We both always pulled for the underdog. Anna is pulling for the Cardinals because she like Kurt Warner. I talked to your Dad Cory and your Momma yesterday, and they like the Cardinals as well. We stay in touch a lot, and I know that makes you happy. I can see your Beautiful face right now. Boy, how I miss that smile, and those big blue eyes. Well, I won't keep you to long. I'm sure your trying to get to your front row seat on the 50 yard line. lol ! I guess I just felt like talking to you for a minute. It makes me cry, but also makes my Heart feel good. I don't think I have to tell you that you'll be right here with me Son watching the game drinking a Bud Light. I'm sure your Aunt Stacey will be having a few Bud Lights herself. She is a Big Steeler fan, and loves her Bud Light. Wasn't that an awesome poem she wrote to you. She's incredible, and loved you so much. Just as we all did. We'll got to go for now, but I'll be in touch soon. You just keep watching over us like you have been. We all really need you to help us be strong, now more than ever. Well, this isn't goodbye, just I'll see ya later. I Miss You Kyle !
All My Love for Eternity,

Kyle,

I Miss you sweetheart! I just can't stop missing you! I just love you so much.. so...so much!

xxxooooxxxoooxxx

Hey Sweetheart, Aunt Stacey was thinking about you today as I do everyday and thought you would like this poem.....

My Special Angel In Heaven.. "Kyle"

There's a "Special and Handsome Angel" in Heaven
that is a part of me, his name is "Kyle Robert Bammann" and he is...Oh So Very Special To Me!

Heaven is not where I wanted him to be....but I guess where God needed him to be.

He is our nighttime shooting star,
And though "Kyle" is in Heaven now
he isn't very far.

"Kyle" touched the heart of so many
like only an "Angel" can do.
I would've held "Kyle" every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above,
Please take care of "My Special Angel Kyle"
and send him "ALL MY LOVE"!!

Hugs & Kisses just for you....Aunt Stacey misses and love you!! XOXOXO

Hey Kyle, this is Daddy. Just dropping a line to let you know that my Heart Loves & Misses You so much Son. I just read what your good friend Tristian wrote. That was so awesome. I could feel the love she had in her Heart for you, just as so many others have. I was ok reading it until I heard what she wrote about the picture she had of you and me on her desk, and how happy you were when you knew you were coming to see me in Florida . I'm sorry you had to see me cry again Baby, but it was because of being happy as well as sad. It made me feel good to know how much love you had in your Heart for me. Thank you Baby, I really needed to hear that right now. Daddy loves you too, more than life. I've been trying to get myself back together like you would want me too, so guess who Anna & me went out with the other night. Uncle Ronnie, Aunt Ivy & Brandon. It was good to see them again. We talked about the years you and Brandon played together when you both were little. We all laughed and cried at the crazy things you, Brandon, & your cousin Leah used to do. I remember how tight you guys were, and how you had that code of silence that all kids have. Anything not to get into trouble. Brandon is a big handsome young man now, but was very humble when we spoke about you. He was especially humble when I hungged him good-bye that evening. He knew when I hugged him good-bye that I held him a little longer because I was hugging you as well, but he just hugged me back and said I Love You uncle Bobby. He's just a great kid, just like you were. Uncle Ronnie is as crazy as ever, and I guess I don't have to tell you how Aunt Ivy looks. Great as always, but I'm sure you can see that for yourself. They all loved you so much Kyle. We tried to have a good time but the emptiness I feel inside is just so overwellming. Daddy's Heart hurts and misses you so bad, that sometimes I just don't how much more it can take. One thing I know for sure, is that I'm not afraid to die anymore. I know how much you brothers and sister need me here, but I sure can't wait to see you again. I wish more than anything you could to hold me again, just like you always did with your left arm around my neck. I have so many pictures of you holding me that way. Check out the attached pic of you and me on your Graduation day. I remember it like it was yesterday. Well, who do you like in the Super Bowl ? We're pulling for the Steelers. What I would give to be able to call you with the lastest line before the big game, just like I always did. Well, I won't keep you to long Son, just felt like talking to you for a minute. It makes my Heart feel good when we talk. Sometimes I can still hear your voice talk back to me. Besides, my tears are falling on my key board which will probably short out my computer. lol ! Please, tell God for me that I'm not trying to question his will, just trying to rationalize why this happen to such a good boy, that was loved by so many, and had a Heart of Gold. I just don't think I'll ever understand why. Anyway, I'm sure God's got you really busy right now, so I'll be talking to you soon. I Love You Kyle, and I want you to know that I've always known that you loved me, but never realized how much until I read what Tristian wrote. Someone that was so close to you, who I didn't even know has a picture of you and me on her desk, and I never realized at the time how excited you were when you knew you were coming to visit me. Now you show me everyday in someway how much you loved me, and that your ok, just being in Heaven with Jesus. That alone gives me some peace and reslove to all this craziness. I turn the off the light that's over your Beautiful picture everynight, and say a prayer that you rest in peace. Then I turn it on every morning so you brighten our day, and watch over our home. I hope you know how Proud Daddy was of all the accomplishments you made in your short life Kyle. Just the fact of knowing how much we loved each other, let's me sleep at night, but when I wake up, the hurt starts all over again. I just keep singing that song to myself "One day at a time sweet Jesus". I need you to help me be strong Son.
I Miss You so much Kyle !
All My Love For Eternity,

Hey Kyle, Just wanted to stop by and tell you Merry Christmas & Happy New Year. I wrote this letter several weeks ago, but ……………………… You already know. We like being the “Ringleaders” I guess…ha-ha I knew you’d like that. I know you can hear what's in my heart & what’s going on without having to read it. This is probably going to be long, but there has been so much on my mind since your passing I can’t keep it in another moment. My mom and I were reading the messages from your father & mother and she began to break down crying. I told her not to cry because you were probably having a better Christmas & New Years than all of us down here. I wonder what it's like to be in Heaven on Jesus' birthday. It must be a real party and you’re probably at the center of it making everyone laugh. I really miss you, your personality and sense of humor. I wanted you to know that Josh & I are expecting a baby in July, but you probably already knew that. Don't know what I'm having yet, but as soon as I find out I'll let ya know. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you and the impact you had on so many lives. Everyday I’m near a computer I open your guestbook and read the love people had for you and just remember the times we shared. You are so missed it makes me sick to my stomach that I can't see you at a River dogs game again or hang out with you or tell you things that are happening in my life in person until I go to heaven. I pull out my yearbooks & old pictures and look at us over the years and how much we all had grown up and so fast. We were all such a close knit group and such true friends even though we didn’t keep in contact the way we all should have after graduation, we always knew we could count on each other to be there in a time of need, we could run into each other and pick up where we left off. There was a picture of all of us in Mrs. Miller's English class in my yearbook. Do you remember when you crawled up into the ceiling to go mess with Mrs. Jerdan's class and A.B. came in and asked why the ceiling tile had been moved and you were still up there and we told him we didn't know? That was one of the funniest times we had in class. Or when we were blessed with the presence of Harvest Baptist rats in our halls? They were generally the size of a small teenager weren't they? When we were in Mr. Miller’s Biology class and you guys put the whole mad scientist garb on just to look through a microscope in the lab? You guys were always so silly. I sit back and think of all the nicknames you guys had for each other and how I got sucked in and you made up my nicknames. Back then I hated those names and you guys for making them up, but now I think at least we were close enough for you guys to think of them and I can forever say you pinned me with that name. I remember all those silly faces you used to make and how you, Doug, Fred & Jonathan would give Ms. Martin such a hard time in Geography. Remember her trying to get you guys to do push ups while she stood on your hands? Or how you guys paid her back with gummy bears? Hahaha...those were the good ol' days. You were always the class clown & always did the best impressions of people; especially our teachers which always helped the days go by faster. You always kept the class in stitches and made school a pleasure for a lot of us- at least the students. I remember when you first came to Harvest in the 7th grade and we didn’t like each other, you started dating Julie then next thing you know we were spending M-F together at school and the weekends at Julie’s. Remember we would go to church with her and every Sunday we would eat out at Cici’s Pizza? Alfredo Pizza with jalapenos! After that we grew so close and we started to say we were each others best friends. When I first heard you call me that I could have had a coronary knowing the rocky past we had. You and Jonathan were always my go to guys and any time I needed to talk you were there and me for you. You guys were so good at soccer, cross country, hunting, fishing and every other endeavor you pursued. Never in a million years did I think you two would become so close so fast, but I’m glad you made fast friends. I remember all the younger girls were in love with you and always wanted to go through me to get to you or have me talk to you for them because they knew we were close. You were the big man on campus and I didn’t blame them. I have the picture of you and your dad on my desktop at work and it helps me to remember everyday that our time here on earth is limited and that we should show the ones we love all the love we can & have to give. The smile on your face is priceless and I always knew you were so happy when you got to see your dad. Your parents truly did love & cherish you, It’s funny we never know how much love a parent has for a child until you become one. I really wish the hands of time could be reversed and things could be different, but I know God allows everything to happen for a reason. It’s not fair and I don't know if this happened to bring family members, friends and loved one's closer together or to open people's eyes to what is in front of them, but I know God doesn’t just let things like this happen for no reason. I hope that you stay by our sides while we continue on this earth and continue to give us peace. People never realize the impact of their actions and who suffers. I know that God is powerful and vengeful and he fixes things in his own time. My mom keeps re-assuring me that all things will come to light, God will take care of everything and all involved will have peace. I know this is true and I know God reminds you of this, but it’s hard to remember that here on Earth. You know their supposed to be having a memorial pool tournament for you and I’m so glad Julie invited me. NO I won’t be playing cause that would just be a sight, but I will definitely be there supporting the cause. You’ve probably got a lot to do & lots of other letters to read... Hope you have a great 2009~ I will love & miss you forever, until we meet again - T.Dud.

In loving memory of a wonderful person. We will love you and miss you always.

Hey Kyle it's Daddy,
It's 11:50 p.m., on January 8, 2009, and the Florida Gators just won the National Championship over the Oklahoma Sooners 24 to 14. They won this one for you Son. I sat on the couch with all my Florida Gator gear on, holding your picture as the clock ran out. Just you and me once again. Buddies and Pals, just like the old days. I miss you so much Kyle. I'm trying so hard to be strong, but I'm afraid that I'm not doing a very good job. I'm sorry ! I Love & Miss You !

Hey Lil' Buddy!! Aunt Stacey just wanted to say "I Love You" and let you know I'm ampin' up for the Gators game. Florida vs. Oklahoma for the BCS National Championship!! TEBOW is gonna Wreck Em'....I'll be thinking about my South Carolina, Florida Born GATORS FAN!! Aunt Stacey Loves You and will be thinking about you ALL evening!!!! Hugs & Kisses baby.....until next time.......XOXOXOXXO

Hey Kyle,
I miss you so much! I keep having these really weird dreams and you're always in them and it's so real, I hear your voice and it's like you never left. God needs you up there to help out I guess but it's just not the same without you here. I had to work on Christmas Eve but they let me go home early to see everyone. When we started opening gifts grandma was calling the names and so was aunt michelle, it just didn't feel right not hearing your name... anyways, we all love and miss you so incredibly much, Cody and Victoria are doing great, she's a real sweetheart! I know you are so proud of Cody. Anyways, I've had you on my mind the past few days just thought I would stop by to say hey and I miss you, I love you

Dear Kyle,

I miss you so much! I know that you are in Heaven & You are enjoying every minute of it! I need to learn to enjoy a little bit of Heaven myself......But its so hard without you here! Kyle, we love you so much! Life will never be the same without you in it! I thank Jesus for You all the time sweetheart. I promise to keep all your family & friends in my daily prayers just as I know you are.
Kyle, Michelle is not the same Michelle without you, she Misses you so much! I know you are her angel right now ...... Its the little things that she notices. We love you sweetheart but of course you know that. We will be with you forever. Susan

Dear Kyle, I am have been working on photo book for many years for you. I was going to give it to you on your wedding day. Now I know that won't happen so I hope as I put these fun pictures in place you could see it from heaven. I do know you are an angle and see all. I laughed and cryed as I put these pictures in place. Then I went back to time these pictures were taken. Like when you you saw Rock take that big string ray out of the water and put it on the dock. When you were playing golf in North Caorlina at aunt Regina's, playing the piano at grandpa Yam's house with your long hair and tail. How about that batman outfit don't ask how cute you were. Yes sweet Kyle we all miss you and have a deep hole inside but when the hurt is hard to bear I remember you are with the Lord and I know I will see you again. I have great pictures of you and Leah playing in the park in New Port Richey. Throwing a ball with uncle Joe. I am sorry I didn't get this done and give it to you last year. Now we all know how life is so quick and how fast things happen we need to do what we want today. I am glad to have been your Goobie. You always were a sweet boy and nice gentle young man. At my 60 th birthday you had more fun playing pool then eating. I can see you smiling face as I remember how good you played with all the other kids. How nice it is to have all these fond memories of you. Oh Kyle Ivy and I were talking about you and she remembered the day Brewn (dog)was playing with you and Braden and you both came in the house and said Ivy come quick Brewn is trying to eat us. When Ivy went out to see Brewn just looked away like I don't know what these boys are saying. It was so funny you and Braden had so much fun with that dog. We did catch the dog pull his lips back and show his teeth he was playing and smiling never did any thing bad. I am so glad I can remember this it makes me laugh when I get sad and my heart hurts. Kyle I don't know about heaven but I hope you get to see all the love we had for you. Even as I write this I cry and wish I could hold you and make you come back but I can't. I know the Lord will help all of us get thu the dark days. Love Goobie

Hey Son, this is Daddy.
Well, the New 2009 Year, has finally arrived. I didn't want to say Happy New Year because it's not. I miss You so much Kyle, and will always cherish your Memory, but wanted you to know that we brought the New Year just as you would have expected us too. As a family. When it was 12:00 a.m., it was just you, Anna, your brothers Kasey & Kristian, your little sister Allie, and Daddy. We all felt you at that moment in our Hearts, and know you were there, just as you will always be for Eternity. Now it's on to Football news. As you know, one of your teams the Clemson Tigers are playing today against Nebraska in the Gator Bowl. The Tigers are favored by 2.5, and I think they can cover the points. I always remember calling you when you were at work to talk about the games. I really miss being able to do that. Everytime I open my phone, your name is there. I just don't have the heart to delete your number Kyle, so I'll just deal with it. Also, your Gators are playing for the National Title against Oklahoma on the 8th. We really need you for that one. Go Gators ! I miss our talks so much. I just want to here your voice again Kyle. Anyway, not much going on today besides Football. I guess I just felt like talking to you for a minute. It makes my heart feel good. Sometimes, I can actually here you talk back to me. Please, keep letting me know everyday that your close to me. Any little sign will be fine, just to let me know your ok, and happy. Oh yea, I talked to your Dad Cory yesterday. We stay in touch alot. I see that Beautiful smile of yours. I thought that would make you smile. I don't know alot of things, but one thing I know for sure Kyle, is you were loved by all of us so much, and I know you loved all of us. You can see that now first hand, and I know that makes you happy. Well, my New Years resolution is to continue making you Proud of me, and to stay in shap of course. You & me were cut from a different cloth. Fighters to the end, just as you fought for your life. Daddy is very Proud of you for that Son. Almost forgot, I created a Martial Arts form in your Honor. It will read like this "In Loving Memory of my Son Kyle, the form name is "The Sparrow", which stands for "Freedom & Independence". It will have about 50 techinques when complete, and should be performed in a strong and confident manner, with a little twist of attitude just like you. I'll you the story behind the Sparrow another time. Master Peterson said he would be honored if he could do the form on his 6th Degree test. I will do it in your Memory on my 4th degree test as well. Master Peterson said he will make it a required form for all of his Black Belt tests from now on in your honor. That's awesome isn't it Kyle. I thought you would like that. Well, I'm sure you have alot better things to do today besides watching Football, so I'll let you go for now. Please, keep watching over your family Kyle. We all need you now more than ever.
All My Love for Eternity,

Happy New Years Sweetheart

Merry Christmas Son, this is Daddy !
As you well know because you can see everything from Heaven now, this Christmas has been especially hard on all of us. Like Aunt Stacey said, we all used to look so forward to passing the phone around when you would call for Christmas each year, just so we could hear your voice. This year we weren't going to have to do that because you were supposed to be here. I was really excited about having you come home for my Birthday and Christmas this year, and couldn't wait to hear your voice in person. I remember for all the years you weren't able to come down for the holidays asking you where you were going to spend Christmas. You would always reply "Well, first I'm going to Momma's so I can eat good, then we would both laugh". Daddy misses hearing you laugh Kyle. I've cried so hard and so long since you've gone to be with Jesus. You see, as parents our children are our soul and our future. When a parent loses a child, especially like the Beautiful boy you were, their hopes and dreams with that child are lost as well. I just don't know what to do without you being in my life everyday. Just to pick up the phone or to feel that Big Bear Hug you used to give me. I just feel so empty Son. I know in my Heart, that's not how you want me to feel, but I can't help it. My Heart is so broken, and I miss you so much. Well, through all my tears I found a way to smile and laugh a little today. I was going through some cards you had sent me when you were little, and I'd like to share just two for now. One was a Christmas card that said "Dear Daddy, I almost told Santa what a neat daddy you are, and how we do all this fun stuff and things, but then I thought he might think I was already so happy that I didn't need any presents in Florida, so I didn't. But maybe I'll tell him in January". Merry Christmas with Love, Kyle xoxoxo, and the other was a Father's Day card with Superman on the front that said "You're more than the wonderful daddy I love, You're my favorite hero ! Happy Fathers Day, I Love You Daddy. Kyle, with the type of fun loving, kind hearted young man you became, and the fact that you've touched so many lives on earth, as well as from Heaven "You are Daddy's Hero, and always will be". Thank you again Kyle for all the joy you brought to my Heart. Daddy promises he will always cherish your Memory. I'm so Blessed, and so Proud to have called you my Son. I need you to help me be strong Kyle. Please !
All My Love,

Merry Christmas Sweetheart!!! Want you to know that you were so missed last night at Daddy's for Christmas. Usually we are all waiting for you to call so that we can pass the telephone around the room, each one of us so excited to get our turn to talk to you! Even though that's not how things went last night we all felt your presence with us. Your My Angel so I know you were there with all of us. ;) Another very special Christmas given to our family by Daddy & Anna. Daddy misses you terribly as we all do! I just found out that your Momma & Cory have given us the opportunity to sign your guestbook for another year to come. That makes me happy to know that I can write to you when I want to. Merry Christmas to them and a very special thank you for such a special gift!! XOXO I am going to go for now I have some cooking to do for our chritmas dinner. Love You Sweetheart and Miss You but talk to ya soon!! ;) XOXO

My Dearest Kyle,
It's Christmas morning and I'm so very lost without you here. The emptiness is almost unbearable. I won't see you fly in the door and give me that big beautiful smile. I won't see your eyes light up just like when you were little, because even as adults all of you knew how important keeping the magic of Christmas was to me. Your stocking hangs on the mantle but is now filled with memories instead of "special treasures" (and don't forget that toothbrush, always that toothbrush.) You are always in my heart Kyle, I miss you so much. but then again, "you know the deal."
Merry Christmas my sweet Son, I love you.
Momma

Dearest Kyle,
This is difficult at best for me to write for I can feel the void you left all the way from Texas.
First, I would like to apologize to you for not being around more with and for you over the years and I ask for your forgiveness. Knowing you like I did, I know you will forgive me without thinking twice about it for this was your nature. Loving and forgiving.
I have many wonderful memories of you Kyle that I will cherish forever, keeping them safe and sound in my heart where I keep all things precious to me.
Secondly, I would like to thank you for what you brought to my life as you did many others. Oh, if we all had the capacity to love like you did...but by your example we try.
Finally son, I want to ask you to save us a place and put in a good word for us as only you could so convincinly do! ; )
We will meet again in God's time and it will be a beautiful reunion.

All my love,

Uncle Dwayne

Sweetheart,
I love you so much, you will always be in my heart. I think about you every second, of every day. Buddy,Roxi,Zoe,and Bella are ok, as you know. You will be my snugglebug for life :) "I like you style.. I like your moves". Rest in Peace my love. I love you. XOXO

truth be told kyle, i have no idea what to say, ive really been avoiding this whole thing! :( but im sitting here now remembering all the amazing times we've shared together, all the way back to my first time ever on a jet ski! "you go in i go in cause im not goin in that water alone" fortunately i was bigger than you so when you did the 360 i so pulled you in with me! :) i miss those days with you, miss the great hunts we've had & all the times we've shared together! ive always looked up to you kyle you're an amazing guy! i am proud & blessed to call you family, and wow i miss you so much, hunting wasn't the same the past few times we've gone, it was so beautiful out there the sky was so blue & we all knew you were looking down on us & you were with us, you're always with us kyle! i know you're in a better place probably up there teaching the kids how to hunt & fish :D i love you so much kyle & miss you even more! i thank God for blessing me with such an amazing family member & ill always remember the memories with you i love you kyle
love dana
ps: im sorry

Hey Kyle, this is Daddy. The last time we were together was on vacation in Tennessee. When we left each other on that rainy morning to go to our respective homes, I never thought I would never see you again. I will always cherish the memories and be grateful for all the times we spent together. The last thing I remember that day was us hugging and promising each other that we would return to Tennessee soon, just to be buddies and pals. When you were little, you always used to say, Daddy are we buddies and pals. I would always respond "of course we are Son, we'll always be buddies and pals". It seems like just yesterday when you were Daddy's little boy, but I'm very Proud of the respectful, kind hearted young man that you became. You touched so many people in your young life Kyle, and should never have to worry about wether you made a difference in peoples lives. All you have to do is read this guest book. Well, not for the reasons I would like, I recently returned from Tennessee where I spread your ashes high in a Mountain River in Gatlinburg, Tn.
I felt that the place I chose to set you free so you could rest in peace was a place that you would have loved. When I walked out and sat on that rock in the middle of the River, I thought of how much the River reminded me of you and your life. The River was so strong and full of confidence, with a little twist of attitude, just like you Son. The River seemed like it would flow for Eternity, just as your memory will in my Heart. For just a moment, before I released your ashes, we just hung out and talked. Like buddies and pals one more time, just like we promised. I miss you so much Son, but find much comfort knowing you are safe with Jesus in Heaven. I can't wait to see you again. Please, wait for me. All My Love For Eternity,

Dear Kyle:
What a beautiful baby you were and what a handsome young man you turned out to be. You are so truly loved and missed. I only have wonderful memories of the times we spent together.
As you well know, Daddy and I said our goodbyes last Tuesday. I know for sure you were there with us when Daddy released some of your ashes into a rushing stream here in the mountains of Tennessee. We could both feel your presence and we both felt the peace you placed in our hearts.
I know your are happy and waiting for us to join you.
You will never be forgotten my beautiful boy. I will love you to my heart forever.

To all of Kyles family:
Our love for Kyle was a blessing.

We had the opportunity to know Kyle well. Kyle was indeed a great man with a passion for life.

Kyle loved our daughter Michelle in a most special way. We knew of the dreams they had. Kyle and Michelle were a loving couple and we were proud to see them building a future together.

Your loss of him is our loss. We believe God has him safely in his arms in heaven. We feel a peace because of this...we hope you all feel the same.

Our love and compasssion to you from hearts that are broken.

We love you all,

Aunt Stacey wants to get her 2 cents in before this Guestbook ends...I am very shy and have been afraid to express how I really feel! I want to tell you how amazed I am to see the love for you that surrounds me! WOW! You are LOVED more than you would ever imagine!! This family "Bammann Family" has never felt such loss and emotion. I don't think that anyone of us really know how to feel or what to say!!! Sadness I know is a big part of it. Knowing that we won't lay eyes on you anymore hurts but on the flip side, knowing that you are looking over our every move makes me feel at peace! I am comfortable knowing that your My Angel and your guiding me through this tough world! Hey you, make sure to tell me if you see me doing something STUPID!!!! hehe I need guidence once in a while! I love you and your memory walks with me every day!!!! I have posted some pictures from our younger days that will probably embarrass the both of us but that's okay, I'm good with that!!!! I love you honey and I love you for loving me!!!!! Hugs & Kisses for you and only you XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

My Michelle & Michelle,
You are forever in our hearts and prayers. Kyle was a very special part of our family and he was deeply loved and will be deeply missed. We pray that GOD give you both comfort and peace. We love you!
Aunt Barbara & Uncle Archie

Bobby & Anna & the entire Family,
Our hearts go out to all of you! There will never be any words or emotions to ever truly describe the sorrow and deepest heart felt sympathy in the loss of Kyle..this tragedy is unfathomable. We Love You ALL Very Much and We Will Continue to Pray for Peace & Comfort to Your Broken Hearts.
Love - The DelleChiaies

Dear Kyle,
We're so sorry for the years we didn't get to see you, but so lucky for all the years that we did. They have always made us smile. And we know that that soft hearted, smiling, bright eyed wonderful little boy grown to be a wonderful man is what Jesus saw walking through his gates...Lucky Him! We'll miss you- Loved & Always Remembered. Uncle Ronnie, Aunt Ivy and Cody

Yes, He Was My Brother !

Yes, it was my brother who stood proudly and tall, knowing when I get bored to give him a call, he always put a smile on my face, and knew in my heart he has a Special place

Now that he's gone I don't know what to do, except say "I Love You" I knew he went away, his soul I keep, every night I think about him when I sleep

He liked to go fishing on the lake, it was his favorite thing to do, he was fun dearing and true, all the things we did together meant a lot, he was so sweet we never fought

Because he is the man he is, I always gave him a warm loving kiss, When I got hurt he always cared, my wounds are better when he was there

Kyle is my heart, Kyle is my bone, I wish I can talk to him one more time on the phone, when I see him in my mind, I always seem to find, him watching over me, he loves me as you see

When I went to visit him one day, I was wanting to play, he is the best big brother ever, loving from now and beyond, in our heart he has a Special part, You know now I loved hanging out with him all the time, thats why I came up with this sweet loving rhyme.
Your Little Sister ?

Family of Kyle:

I did not know Kyle personally, but my son did (who was also a student at Harvest Baptist School). I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You are each in my prayers.

Michelle, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. May god comfort you and your family through this time of sorrow. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Dear Lord, You have been sent a young man by the name of Kyle Bammann in the prime of his life. Take care of him and look over him.I am his OPA (grandfather). I never spent the time I should have with him, or my other grand and great-grandchildren. I have many fond memories of him and they relate to fishing. Hour after hour with the patience of a saint he sat and waited for the big one. He came to Tennessee for a visit and saw a canoe on the porch.He asked if he could take it out to go after his dream so I said sure. The two of us dragged the canoe to the lakes edge which to him seemed like the titanic. With all the energy which only comes with youth he entered the boat with enough fishing gear to go and catch the big one.We pushed the canoe out into the lake. He started to paddle forward and all of a sudden he yelled to me and wanted to know how to go backwards. I told him to figure it out. He thought for a minute and he decided the best way was to turn around in the canoe and sit at the other end.After doing this 2 or 3 times he asked me if there was a better way.After explaing the right way he tried it and got it right. He was so happy and yelled "thanks opa". He then asked me if he could go out on the lake by himself. I said as long as you respect the canoe and foremost the lake you are on you own. Off he sailed to catch the fish of his dreams. As darkness set in I started to worry. Just then I heard "OPA". Nine hours had gone by,I was really worried, but not him.He came running with 2 brim about 4 inches long in hand. He never got the fish of his dreams but that was ok. His love for fishing was the way he treated life.Even if he made a mistake he found a way to get it right.It is a shame he did not get a chance to make many more mistakes and have more chances to get it right.Coming to see you was his way of getting it really right. Lord tell Kyle I will see him soon and to bait the hook. OPA

My Dearest Kyle, I miss you so much. We just spoke a little over three weeks ago. You called to speak to your Dad, and I told you he had worked a double, did you want me to wake him up. You of course said, no let Dad rest. That gave us a chance to talk. As usual you were shooting Pool, just as you always did when you had things on your mind. When I asked you if you were playing, you quickly apologized because that's the type of person you were. A polite, and respectful young man. I ask you to please not only watch over all your brothers and sisters who loved you very much, but to watch over your Mom & Dad in South Carolina. Please watch over me and your dady as well. That's how you used to spell Daddy when you were our little boy. Kyle, we all really need you to help us be strong. We are all so Proud of you and your accomplishments, but most of all we are Proud of the wonderful thoughtful young man you had become. I'll miss our talks, but will always cherish the times we got to spend with each other during all of the Summers when you were little, and the time we spent together in Tennessee. You will always have a Special place in my heart honey. All My Love !

Bobby & Family:
I am very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Dear Kyle, Your Uncle Eddy and I miss you so much. You will always be in our hearts and in our most happiest of memories. Thank you God for sharing this wonderful young man with us.
Kyle your not alone, Lobo and Windsor will guide you through your travels where you will find everlasting peace and happiness.
Love Always
Aunt Dee & Uncle Eddy

Bosabunim Bammann,

From the Richardson family you have our heart felt condolences. I have no idea what it feels like to lose a child and hope I never have to experience it. If you or your family need anything at all feel free to contact your Musa family at anytime.